Happy Day? or Sad Day?

okay..5 something in the morning..and i have decided to blog..
okay..yesterday..8th of September , it was supposed to be a wonderful day..until i found something out
oh well..even though i found something out , yet that doesn't affect me i perhaps..things were so good until the night..sometimes i seriously wonder..why can't life be just simple..i want a simple life..a very simple 1 is fine for me..but usually..things that u hoping for won't come for you without any prices..

Night..home..actually nothing's have changed..but i had the weird feeling that..why are the surrounding so strange to me..a good friend of mine asked.."how's your date?" i wondered..is that consider a date? nvm..doesn't matter anyway..home..bath..found something wrong..and somehow the something is finally solved..things cleared now..yet..no matter what we do in the future..it will just show unfairness to both party..

actually there are 3 things i treasured the most at the moment..
The 1st 1 of course it's my family..i love my family..especially my mum and my elder sister..they provide support to me all the time..and i'm sincerely thanks them so much..and i'm sure that whoever try to go against my family..i swear i'll just do anything for my family..no matter at what cost

2nd thing that i treasured the most..my brothers..after the lastest gathering..i found that..all my brothers are the best..they're my brothers..my buddy..my man..giving help when i need..ofcos in return i will just do whatever i can to help them as well..well i guess i told some of you about that..the feeling i hate the most..and it's the feeling that..when friend is in trouble..and i couldn't do anything to help them..i hate this feeling..and im so sick of this feeling..i want to help my friends..i'd like to see them in happy always..and not covered by those sad story or whatever on earth that might make me losses their smiles..

the 3rd thing..is her..yes..the first girl i fell for and yet i'm not like just telling for fun..and seriously..i do tried..im so mind about whatever happened to her..she sad -i sad..she happy-i happy..well..way typical..but i like it..what i can say is..her innocent look is just so irresistable..i love everything about her..love her everything...and also it's what that driving me crazy..i treasure every moment when i'm with her..i appreciate her words..whatever she said..might be a small deal..but it means a thing to me... but somehow sadly.. just like what i've say..life's not simple..obstacle of life is everywhere..well..part of life..today..5 something in the morning..woke up just because of parent's quarreling..i seriously wondered..what if my dad or mum chooses another person as their wife/husband..will things still goes like this? is this also 1 of the obstacle of life?i've totally no idea..

sad day , emo day , i'll do whatever i can..to prevent anything bad happening on me..
although life sucks , but im still trying my best to make it perfect imperfectly.

*~Nickdesire~*