Time..

When i almost got it down , why came back and brought everything up again..
after brought everything there , and you leave them here without a reason again..

i tried not to think, but i just couldn't control myself..
what were you trying to tell me? hinting? or just being polite and answering what I'm asking?
Im not that great anymore..im no longer be able to giving out without getting anything in return to and from you...and what im asking for wasn't greedy anyway, what i wanted all the time was just an answer from you..
just a simple Yes .. and im willing to wait no matter how long is it..
it's feel so bad to pretend that im good , im fine , im alrite infront of others when im NOT REALLY GOOD AT ALL...i just couldn't stop myself from myself from thinking what you've told me..
Laughter and smile , the best pretending way to show that im good..and im learning all these stuffs daily..
i thought i won't be emo anymore.. but as usual , a single word from you , unintentionally break my world..
i just couldn't do anything with all my frustrated mood..when friends is in trouble , i tried my best to help, to consult , to console..
why when it's my turn , i just couldn't cheer myself up? now i see what others call that when the things not happening on you,yourself..it's always easy..when things happen on you, and now u know how hard is it to get over these stuff..

You've became the center of my world again, whatever im doing is like for your sake.. i want to care , i want to mind , but i just couldn't get my way..now i see why a simple greet to the 'beloved' one can be so hard when the same thing is applying on other person..
your sweetness voice..when i hear it again, i will never want it to reaches an end..
and i just realized..i couldn't be able to listen to your voice anytime i want anymore..
the bubbles is no longer here..and im no longer can listen to your voice anymore..

looking at your picture , giving me a motivation , to work hard , to think for future..
and sometime , i even thought of, what if i've became a millionaire..will thing be way much easier than what happening now? did my mind just filled with all the golds & money? everything is confusing me..i asked myself what is all these thinking for? when they're like an unachieveable task without you..

You're not mine, and how bad i wish that you could be mine..