Ok..whatever it is..im just god damn speechless now, otherwise i wouldn't choose to write out at here.
1st : car got stolen
so fucking emo sia..whole car, park at outside also can get stolen..speechless.
2nd : mum and sis quarreling
starts from a normal conversation inside car, mum kisiao, whole house kena,no one's safe.
3rd : Marketing
lecturer gonna whin hard about his homework, now in this critical moment, i where got mood go think about that.
Only 1 thing make me feel successful, is that i got my dear behind me -.- otherwise can go suicide d.......wdffffffffffffffffffffffffffff
so fucking speechless seriously..i dono what to say d..EMO
Thought everything was fine today, just gonna be another normal day. but nothing's good after 3.49P.M. today..find bo car..ki che kong..then realized car was stolen..damn emo d..somehow saw my dear's smile..that did seriously cheered me up..
ok..car stuff solved? considered gua..
inside car..convo with mum and sis..just because of some complains we made..
Sis complained about money , i complained about money, mum mad becuz of money.
everything also becuz money..this world is ruled by the evilnish money..WDFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
ok..got this wish badly.
I hope 1 day, i woke up, i'm grown, an adult, a working style adult, not a teenager style mia. woke up , work , finish work, pak tor, sleep.
when im capable for all these things, i wouldn't have to worry for all these nonsense,
BUT.......how far is this dream distant from me?...
and seriously i wouldn't want it come so soon..but i want it come so soon..so wdf i got in my mind rite now?
AMBIVALENT!!!!!! YES , it's AMBIVALENT!
FUCK MY LIFE PLEASE.
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Movie
okay , since when huh..i fell for MOVIES!
Yeah..i feel it's damn great to watch movies..maximum of 2 hours time , out of movie u get to watch through a person's hardworks for years, and how they work through the movie. and in the movie, u get to watch a person's life.
that's pretty awesome rite? =P
but somehow, movie always goes to a good ending, but real life doesn't.
alright, it's 19th of March now, about 2 more months till the 21th of May, the so called doomsday by some Christian Association in US or whatever it is. pretty absurd and ridiculous with what they thought, but somehow they convinced me that the Doomsday is actually real.
If Doomsday happened now, i would just feel , pretty sad , and down..im gonna cry hard that it's happening..
Imagine, if tomorrow is the Doomsday, what you gonna do? hide at home? stay with ur beloved 1? have fun like no tomorrow? oh yeah..it's no tomorrow..whos know tomorrow will never have tomorrow.
Jason said , Doomsday is coming, so do what u want to do, so u'll have no regret.
Sound kinda motivating, but it won't works actually. the real thing that work is , just wait for die.
oh well..sound coolsome when u have doomsday as the excuse to do something, what if the Doomsday is just a lie? ;) so it would be ur PERSONAL Doomsday rite? hehe..
whatever, rubbish thinking im having..gosh and i don wanna admit that..
i miss you more than usual tonight.
Good Night world.
Yeah..i feel it's damn great to watch movies..maximum of 2 hours time , out of movie u get to watch through a person's hardworks for years, and how they work through the movie. and in the movie, u get to watch a person's life.
that's pretty awesome rite? =P
but somehow, movie always goes to a good ending, but real life doesn't.
alright, it's 19th of March now, about 2 more months till the 21th of May, the so called doomsday by some Christian Association in US or whatever it is. pretty absurd and ridiculous with what they thought, but somehow they convinced me that the Doomsday is actually real.
If Doomsday happened now, i would just feel , pretty sad , and down..im gonna cry hard that it's happening..
Imagine, if tomorrow is the Doomsday, what you gonna do? hide at home? stay with ur beloved 1? have fun like no tomorrow? oh yeah..it's no tomorrow..whos know tomorrow will never have tomorrow.
Jason said , Doomsday is coming, so do what u want to do, so u'll have no regret.
Sound kinda motivating, but it won't works actually. the real thing that work is , just wait for die.
oh well..sound coolsome when u have doomsday as the excuse to do something, what if the Doomsday is just a lie? ;) so it would be ur PERSONAL Doomsday rite? hehe..
whatever, rubbish thinking im having..gosh and i don wanna admit that..
i miss you more than usual tonight.
Good Night world.
Monday, March 14, 2011
Life , disappointment.
Yes! it's Monday tomorrow , another beginning of a week, a busy week.
ok..actually i got damn alot things to do, maybe that's also the reason why im blogging here,
atleast i have an official excuse to curi snake :P
ok..back in few days ago, when i was gymming, i start telling myself.
If i ever happen to have a girl who really take care of me, i would seriously treasure and appreciate her for my life. It's so hard to have someone who really bother and care of you.
When i was there alone, my mind start thinking again. What's happening is exactly not what i want
and what i want is not what exactly happening..oh well..EMO rite? but somehow i noe after the darkness get thru my life , the Light will be so soon to be seen! To have unlucky stuff happen, so u can see what's really lucky in life.
few days ago , was really damn emo , but now i guess im better alr..as soon as i found that life wasn't perfect. it's has too much of obstacle to get through, don be too naive for life, don't simply look for people who can accompany you for life..as in the end, u will absolutely be alone again.
ok..lets say..now i seeking for this kind of life, what if i achieve that life? is that i will be satisfy with what i will be having? or i will just go and seek for another better life than it?
oh well..i guess that's a little bit too much to think now
down days it were, a person , who slowly graded in my heart, slowly filled my mind, is now leaving me like left my world, and left my alone. How sad is it? i used to tell the person what's happening, and i thought i've finally found the 1? but life has ironically fooled me again, neglected what my feels will be. things were just dream, an illusion.
2nd time for my life , it would make me to be more clever when goes thru with such stuff again,
thanks god, thanks jesus for giving me such obstacle and hard times.
seriously i can't believe what had happened. Came , Talked , Communicated , Known, in the end i know nothing and i got nothing, it's just like a trap , to set me up and break me down , to build me up and tear me down. u filled my mind with ur shadows, and now u're leaving like the moon gotta leave when the sun is coming there..maybe im just that bad?
oh well..my vision and mission , to amuse others, then hide beside and cry alone
in the end, im just no different with my past , always a failure , always a fatty.
HAHA..i guess i've outta my mind in the few months, i thought i've changed, in the end. im just a clown. im not qualified to do anything. it's not my times , and my times will never be here.
Life , i love u so much seriously.
ok..actually i got damn alot things to do, maybe that's also the reason why im blogging here,
atleast i have an official excuse to curi snake :P
ok..back in few days ago, when i was gymming, i start telling myself.
If i ever happen to have a girl who really take care of me, i would seriously treasure and appreciate her for my life. It's so hard to have someone who really bother and care of you.
When i was there alone, my mind start thinking again. What's happening is exactly not what i want
and what i want is not what exactly happening..oh well..EMO rite? but somehow i noe after the darkness get thru my life , the Light will be so soon to be seen! To have unlucky stuff happen, so u can see what's really lucky in life.
few days ago , was really damn emo , but now i guess im better alr..as soon as i found that life wasn't perfect. it's has too much of obstacle to get through, don be too naive for life, don't simply look for people who can accompany you for life..as in the end, u will absolutely be alone again.
ok..lets say..now i seeking for this kind of life, what if i achieve that life? is that i will be satisfy with what i will be having? or i will just go and seek for another better life than it?
oh well..i guess that's a little bit too much to think now
down days it were, a person , who slowly graded in my heart, slowly filled my mind, is now leaving me like left my world, and left my alone. How sad is it? i used to tell the person what's happening, and i thought i've finally found the 1? but life has ironically fooled me again, neglected what my feels will be. things were just dream, an illusion.
2nd time for my life , it would make me to be more clever when goes thru with such stuff again,
thanks god, thanks jesus for giving me such obstacle and hard times.
seriously i can't believe what had happened. Came , Talked , Communicated , Known, in the end i know nothing and i got nothing, it's just like a trap , to set me up and break me down , to build me up and tear me down. u filled my mind with ur shadows, and now u're leaving like the moon gotta leave when the sun is coming there..maybe im just that bad?
oh well..my vision and mission , to amuse others, then hide beside and cry alone
in the end, im just no different with my past , always a failure , always a fatty.
HAHA..i guess i've outta my mind in the few months, i thought i've changed, in the end. im just a clown. im not qualified to do anything. it's not my times , and my times will never be here.
Life , i love u so much seriously.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
A Conversation perhaps?
sigh , i wanna talk to you so much , but i couldn't find an excuse to talk with you -.-
completely no topic to talk with.
so from that i can see , u're not involved in my life, me either.
life goes on with you , life still goes on without you -.- wdf is this.
difference location , difference person , yet same problem -.-
sigh , this is what we so called LIFE yeah?
completely no topic to talk with.
so from that i can see , u're not involved in my life, me either.
life goes on with you , life still goes on without you -.- wdf is this.
difference location , difference person , yet same problem -.-
sigh , this is what we so called LIFE yeah?
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Saturday, January 29, 2011
一切的一切
原来，在几天前才发现，当寂寞吞噬了我时，身旁的朋友，没有一个是我可以依赖的。
然而，是我开始不再相信别人了。虚伪的一切，友谊的背后，开始发现，原来自己才是最真实的一切，开始慢慢的把一切隐藏起来，宁可难受一会，也不把脆弱的自己展现人前。
我相信，黑暗的背后，终是有着光明的等待，当一切黑暗过了，光明就会来临。
霉气到了，我不负气，因为这些霉气，真是证明好运的最好证据。若没有了白天，人们又如何懂得分辨黑夜？若没有了好事，我们哪懂得分辨什么是坏事？
自己，是世上最可靠的一切。
然而，是我开始不再相信别人了。虚伪的一切，友谊的背后，开始发现，原来自己才是最真实的一切，开始慢慢的把一切隐藏起来，宁可难受一会，也不把脆弱的自己展现人前。
我相信，黑暗的背后，终是有着光明的等待，当一切黑暗过了，光明就会来临。
霉气到了，我不负气，因为这些霉气，真是证明好运的最好证据。若没有了白天，人们又如何懂得分辨黑夜？若没有了好事，我们哪懂得分辨什么是坏事？
自己，是世上最可靠的一切。
Monday, January 10, 2011
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