2010的最后一天

2010的最后一天了，我决定用华文来写这一篇。

真的，随着年龄的增长，知识与责任也一样越来越多，越来越重
以前，不管做什么，都总是依赖，除了依赖，还是依赖
不过现在不同了，男的，不管怎样都得有点本事，除了本事，还需要有胆识
之前总是不断地逃避，但现在必须面对了，曾听说过“不能逃避就只好享受”
把所有面对的问题，好好的享受一番，就当作是种考验，也许人生会过得比较容易吧

在2010里，我学了很多东西，也会了很多事情
我的情绪，开始因为某个人而起了变化
我学会了为自己所做的每件事负起责任
我懂得如何把生活过得充实一点
我了解如何对一个人好，关心一个人的一切
我交了许多的朋友，开始懂得不一样方面的事情
我开始变得主动，不再被动

友情，
2010开头，以往中学的友情仍一样，固定的相聚，开开玩笑，吵吵闹闹
而在进了中六后，开始发现了一些社会上会遇见的权位相争，然而，当时的我选择了逃脱，逃到了学院去
到了学院后，认识了新的朋友，结交了新的友情，而开始感受到了学院的生活，也慢慢有了新的知己，有时也会想想，如果当时的我没做出这样的决定，现在又会如何呢？可能会错失了这些朋友。
然而，我是个无法将情感分散的人，对于友情，我曾相信一个人不可能能够多方面维持多段友情，曾想过放弃的我，很庆幸的没有做出这些决定，不过我还是一样，友情不能多方面维持，与这一班朋友亲近，无以避免地，另一班就得有点牺牲了。

亲情，
2010，认识了某个好友后，才发现原来我可以如此般的与姐姐们沟通，对朋友来说，是让她羡慕不已的事情，未曾想过与兄弟姐妹之间也需要所谓的尊重，那未免也太严格了吧。不过，今年我才发现，原来我与我姐之间的沟通也不是很多，有时想要与她分享，却反而被她敷衍或责骂。而谈话方面，原来我姐并不了解我，有时在家中，每天的谈话都不到五句啊。。不过经济上，她是很支持我的，而二姐，她今年去了外国求学，而数个月没见的她，就快要回来了，期待期待啊！

爱情，
这方面，我仍然是个失败者，今年，才刚开始离开游戏的影子，有了心仪对象，不过似乎复杂了点吧，真心并不代表一切，感觉。。
我不懂我的执著是否对错，我不懂我的坚持是否会得到肯定，不过，我不会再犹豫
从第一眼看到的她，到了解她过后，仍然喜欢着，感觉果然是不能控制的
曾好几次想要放弃，到了现在仍放不下，坚持与执著，似乎离我越来越近
认识她后，我发现面子好像与我有了距离，做了许多我都没想过的事，人也变得越来越主动了
情绪开始受了影响，她的一句话，足以让我思考一整天
紧张，是因为我太过在意，在意一切的一切，因为我经不起失去拥有
无论如何，伤心有时是避免不了，不过我仍然祝福，也希望她能每天过得开开心心，那么我就满足了


2012 世界末日，我是相信的，到了2012年的12月21日，世界是否到了完结片?或者那意味着新时代的来临？我不懂。。现在才开始有点梦想，然而一切就得结束了，成就，没达到，就已经完蛋了。幸福，还在奢望着，就已远离了。有时想想，剩下的两年，该如何的过，得过且过？或者让自己过得没有后悔？我也不懂了

圣诞，在中秋时，曾想过今年的圣诞会如何的度过，到了现在，已经要到新的一年了，圣诞也已经过了，但至少，今年的圣诞我过得很开心，很热闹，想起当时的想法，现在的我已经算是满足了。

2011 年，我又能期待些什么呢？是否我已踏上世界末日的阶梯，离生命的结束点越来越近了？

幸福又离我有多远呢？
期待的心情，仍然期待，一直期待，永远期待。

2011，探索生命的更多与更多。。
Nick Lim Wen Wei.

It's because the same thing again.

Hello , I'm here blogging again , and still from the same cause that caused me to blog here.
Yesterday was a good day , at least it was, until I've meet her again.
Marathon at 21st of Nov , 2010 .
it was my 1st time participate in the activity , a world-wide activity , global!
even with only 2 hours sleep for 2 days, but i seriously had lots of fun there... such a memorable day

everything was so good until i went to have my movie at Queensbay,
i don't know whether i was lucky or what..i saw her there..a person who i wished to see, between many people out there...it eventually drove my crazy , and i doesn't feel good at all..
i wished to see , but when i saw , i doesn't feel alright..was that wish just a motivation for myself?
or just another excuse for myself?

Finally i have my time to have a good rest , but it wasn't peace at all..everytime before i sleep, i will ask myself whether what happened in the day , and if it's a good day or no..
but when i asked myself what had happened today..i can't straightly tell it out..i don't know..
i seriously don't know..
after had 12 hours of sleeps , woke up with a damn depressed and stressed feel..i doesn't feel alright at all..im NOT........OMG...im just feel like collapsing..
why when things happened , i can't tell her , why when i need someone to talk to , i will never be able to talk to her.. she will never be my listener , never..
i don't know what i want , i don't know what i looking for , i don't know what is going on..
i have the feel of losing everything in the world again , it's the feel i been scaring of..
im sure im MAD..
i wanna chat , but who can i to? what to? and am i really want to chat? or i just don want myself to have the time to think?
im just fucking gone mad again..how can get rid of this?
i want this god damn feel get away from me..it makes my day down , i feel everythings goes wrong , my life has goes wrong as well , i need someone to talk to , but i don't even know who to talk to...................
FML seriously........

天空

今天的天空，比昨天的灰多了，然而今天我说的是天气，而不是心情..
到了游泳池旁，望着灰沉沉的天空，心情也不是很自在
看到了与以往不一样的天气，灰色天空与滴滴落下的雨滴，思索开始转动了..
想想为何每次当心情不好时，总会想泡在泳池中，然后开始在这里找回那放松的心情，
今天才开始明白了，是因为，在这附近的每棵树，每片叶，每个情景，都存在了回忆，
所有的回忆: 我认识妳之前，想认识妳时，在认识妳时，想念妳，思念妳
种种的感觉: 期待，快乐，等待，希望，绝望，伤心
复杂的心情，我是乎都一一的寻回了。。。
在游泳时想了想，在发现，原来就是能力的问题。。。能力。。。
到现在，仍然是没有能力的，只是个学生的我，又能做什么?
而目前，我该注意的，应该是如何取得这个能力。。把书读好？把人际关系搞好？就能取得未来的成功吗？
十八了，对某些人来说，还是相当年轻，不过对于我来说，终觉得有点老了，哈哈。。
已不能像以前般得过且过，开始想好好的管理我的时间，管理金钱，开始想有点储蓄的感觉..
有个朋友，在最近与他认识的更深后，才发现原来他真的很不错，才发现他原来比我好多了。
身为大哥的他，需要照顾好弟妹们，更需成为他们的榜样， 有着那一股责任感的他，远比我这生为别人的弟弟的我好多了，依赖性超强的我，从小就只懂依赖着父母与姐姐们。。终是想从现在开始慢慢改变，虽然我懂得体会别人，然而我开始觉得我所谓的体会与关心，都已经成为了多余的一切，关心不该关心的，然而那些我应该关心的，我却好像忽略了。。

我想开始慢慢改变了，对于不该多余的关心，我不该再给与了。。
我开始会想把一些所谓的特权存于未来的“她”。。有些以往对每个人都说得话，我已不再说了，因为我开始发现，当这些话，若你对任何人都说得话，那对于你那特别的他又有什么特别的呢？
而若某个人需要帮助时，你也给与帮助，若当那特别的他需要时，难道就是一视同仁的意识？

今天终有种想要唱歌的感觉，复杂的心情，我也不想再去想了，然而过了今天，一切将回复正常


慢慢改变，改变就好；慢慢习惯，习惯就好。。

Time..

When i almost got it down , why came back and brought everything up again..
after brought everything there , and you leave them here without a reason again..

i tried not to think, but i just couldn't control myself..
what were you trying to tell me? hinting? or just being polite and answering what I'm asking?
Im not that great anymore..im no longer be able to giving out without getting anything in return to and from you...and what im asking for wasn't greedy anyway, what i wanted all the time was just an answer from you..
just a simple Yes .. and im willing to wait no matter how long is it..
it's feel so bad to pretend that im good , im fine , im alrite infront of others when im NOT REALLY GOOD AT ALL...i just couldn't stop myself from myself from thinking what you've told me..
Laughter and smile , the best pretending way to show that im good..and im learning all these stuffs daily..
i thought i won't be emo anymore.. but as usual , a single word from you , unintentionally break my world..
i just couldn't do anything with all my frustrated mood..when friends is in trouble , i tried my best to help, to consult , to console..
why when it's my turn , i just couldn't cheer myself up? now i see what others call that when the things not happening on you,yourself..it's always easy..when things happen on you, and now u know how hard is it to get over these stuff..

You've became the center of my world again, whatever im doing is like for your sake.. i want to care , i want to mind , but i just couldn't get my way..now i see why a simple greet to the 'beloved' one can be so hard when the same thing is applying on other person..
your sweetness voice..when i hear it again, i will never want it to reaches an end..
and i just realized..i couldn't be able to listen to your voice anytime i want anymore..
the bubbles is no longer here..and im no longer can listen to your voice anymore..

looking at your picture , giving me a motivation , to work hard , to think for future..
and sometime , i even thought of, what if i've became a millionaire..will thing be way much easier than what happening now? did my mind just filled with all the golds & money? everything is confusing me..i asked myself what is all these thinking for? when they're like an unachieveable task without you..

You're not mine, and how bad i wish that you could be mine..

Bringing back.

It has been 58 days ago, Since i last meet and hear her . When the time i tried to make it clear ,
i've decided to bring everything to its end.

and now , i get to hear your voice again, the voice i been always awaiting, and now i finally get to hear it again. Although kinda outta words , but as long as i can hear ur voice, im freaking satisfied with it

you're still the only thing that would makes my emotional goes wrong, the one and the only one that makes my heart beating faster and faster.. i always ask other not to be emo , but when things happened on me, i still can't do it the same way i told other to.. sound kinda sad yeah?

i just can't believe that..i asked her "are you single?" .. and her reply was "yes"..
repugnant has shown, im glad she's still single , i might do stand a chance still ,
on the other side, she still haven't meet the 1 she loves, and i probably won't be the one,
so what can i do? and for what she told me, is that a hint again? or she's just entertaining me?
the only place i would hide from her is only this , she surely won't read my blog , that's why im writting all these out , and im not didn't respecting what she has told me , just i wanna write it out..so i can know what im having in my mind during this time

wait or not to wait , it's inside my hand , i thought i had everything let go , when she talked to me , everything has brought back to my mind and i just couldn't do anything else beside think ,
brain getting lazier to think , i just want an exact answer , and i will never have this answer.
times...i need times.....

...

when the time i see my mum dropped her tears , my heart broken , the disappointment in her eyes , i just couldn't do anything , what can i blame?

Promise

promised myself :) no more EMO..

everyday only once in life , it doesn't have another TODAY that u just passed , soooooooo nomatter what happened for god's sake , im just gonna live my life happily ~~~

i rmb what AK told me :D happy 1 , happy life .. hehe

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最近，生活有一点难过
脾气，总是有一点暴躁
心情，还是有一点复杂
感触，然而有一点良多

心情不太好时，果然泳池还是最好发泄的地方，一进到泳池，果然轻松了。游泳时，总是让我好好冷静的时候，把难过，在意，计较的事都慢慢反省，我不是圣人，我也不是智者，我还是会在意，会生气,果然是我修行不到家。...

无奈的感觉

曾尝试把笑容挂在脸上，就可以把一切掩饰了，
却才发现原来笑容的背后，都只是自己不敢面对的一切。
懦弱，失落，绝望， 失败，辜负，伤心

Perfect workout day!

*opened eyes* holy shit..so bright? ahhh my god! im late again -.- *look at phone* goshhh...8.35am -.- *rush rush rush* damn i still need to submit my assignment! gahh...called Alwin for the assignment , and he also just woke up lol..This is the reason why i can't have my music on for the whole night..as in the next day , my alarm sure failed to wake me up -.-

reached college at 8.50 or so..went in canteen , saw Mr Tan Wei Bin buying his breakfast when i just step in the canteen. followed by whole group of classmate =.=''.. fortunately they're having break now :D hehehehe..sneak into the class and pretend like i've reach there on time :D

after having 3 hours of management class , 2 hours to be exact , with 1 hour of break/earlier dismiss , we went to canteen for breakfast , as WeiBin was the only 1 who took his breakfast during break. ZhanJin came late and also submitted his assignment late LOL. Mr Goh was alr inside the office -.- and he bothered him to come out and take the assignment. After the breakfast , we went 6th floor and sit there chit-chat again =.= when we went to washroom , Caryn was on the same way too. looks like she was moody or something ..and eventually saw Mei too. After awhile , only know that they're kinda having a party on the rooftop.. Went up to the rooftop with WeiBin , and just realized , WOAH , a damn awesome view at there , just abit hot though. guess we gonna go there more often next time :D

after that , have an hour of account class -.- freaking bored as i dunno what the hell on earth the teacher teaching lol..ok, after class dismissed after 1 hour (WOOT) , straight rushed to home. After home, online for awhile, enjoyed music for about half an hour. Meanwhile ,took a short nap also, then after woke up from the nap, went to Gym -.- lol..after Jason's membership expired, i also damn lazy to go, but also because of the assignment so got no mood to go also..reached there around 2.50pm or so, workout till 3.50pm :D 1 hour of workout. Ordered the second cup of protein drinks lol..just to replenish my energy. After that..walked home, arrived home around 4.15pm or so, online for about 15 mins, then changed to swimming trunk and went downstair for swim lol..gonna change my plans alr , 2 rounds frog style , then free style for 5 rounds~ ^^
As i think free style would got better work out. Home then dota with Tengz for 2 rounds -.- idk why im having delay for every game that Tengz hosted sia..sad nia..zzzzz..

Whatever , it's just a game =p hehehe
going out with bros later , to Queensbay for movie/shopping :D
actually idk what so good with shop now -.- as i alr out of mood of buying clothes lol..and movie? nty , i even fell asleep while watching Legend of the Fist ..............
Cya , gonna get ready =]

*Nick*

十月一日~

不知不觉，又到了十月了，时间飞逝，已经毕业就快一年了，这一年真是过得最快的一年。

十月期间，所能期待的日记，大概只有七日，十三日跟十四日吧。七日，对我来说是好有意义的一天啊，而也是我亲爱的母亲的生日，我想我就快要有复杂的心情了吧。。。

距离上个post，已经是几天前的事了。这几天，满有意义的，跟学院的同学变得亲近了，今天也第一次跟他们一同去看电影，感觉满不错，最重要的是，WeiBin 真的很欠扁。。。

从一首歌当中，听到了这样的歌词，“天是那么大，人是那么多，偏偏让我约见你”...
仔细想想，还蛮有意义的。意味着缘与分的出现，天是那么的大，能够遇见一个人，并且成为朋友也不宜。老土讲一句，正所谓“有缘千里来相会，无缘对面不相逢” 结为朋友已不宜，更何况是成为好朋友，有时还真的得改改我那死人态度。。。

到今天，还是一样的想法，1个字，拼！
今天得到了account的成绩，对我来说，还蛮满意的，毕竟没有是根基的一科。。
好像能够维持这样的成绩，但也需要付出等价的努力，然而目前的我还没有这样的决心，
每天回到家，始终是懒懒散散的，什么都懒得做，懒得管。到目前为止，在家认真好好读书的时间仍然少过2小时 -.-

刚才，在facebook无意间看到一篇文章，题目是:

越喜欢你，越没话跟你说··

在读了后，发现还蛮真的，在之前的时候，面对她，终是不知从何说起，好像跟她讲话，却没有话题，而冥冥中注定，每次试着告白，都终是很奇妙的失败-.- 都已经说了出口，但只得了“天意弄人"这四个字。。但也好，现在的我，不再执著，不再沉默，而也开始寻回之前的幽默 hehe...
其实那是天意或人为，我也不懂，不过我也懒得猜了，毕竟猜到也是无谓的 -.-

连连续续的不够睡眠，都是自找的，明明一大早就可以睡了，却无心睡眠 -.- 弄到隔天的我爱睡到半死 -.- 12.20, 是时候了..晚安！

Nick~

~十八岁的中秋节~

昨天，在只有月饼的中秋气氛中度过了中秋节...
没有灯笼，也没有小孩跑来跑去的那种气氛，开始在想是否长大了就再也体验不到小时候那种快乐的中秋节了..
十八岁，是乎对我来说，有了某种不一样的感觉，终觉得十八岁度过节日时，应该有着与以往不一样的环境，毕竟十八岁也只有一次而已...
现在，所能期待及期望的，就只有十八岁的圣诞节了..满期待到时的我会如何度过那个节日..可能到时度过圣诞节后的我，在回来读时，会发现曾经期望的心情吧..

今天，与好友一起去享用晚餐，因为只是一个普通的晚餐，所以也没很在乎衣着方面，哈哈
翻了一翻衣橱，找到了一件衣服，曾经是我很喜欢穿的，却因为是我那时穿出去的那件，而渐渐的有了一种奇怪的感觉，不过今天终于拿出来穿了，在从电梯那走到咖啡店时，脑海中终是不断钩起一切的回忆，终觉得，好怪的一切，毕竟也已经是结束了的，但还是会想，究竟一切的一切，在一开始时是不是都是场骗局，所有发生的一切都是如编好的剧情般似地播出？

还记得，曾问过我大姐，如果有了美好的回忆，但也只是回忆，而且不可能会再发生的事，该如何解决？忘记?还是该把它埋在深深的脑海中？而大姐回答了，记住，但别执著。美好的回忆，就该记住，因为那也曾是你生命中发生过的开心事啊，把它记住，何乐而不为呢？但千万别活在记忆中，而美好的回忆，终究是会让更美好的回忆取代的。而心情不好时，可以把一切的事情都停下来，用10分钟的时间来emo一下。

姐说的很对，别浪费太多的时间emo , 毕竟那对事情完全没有帮助，反而只会让自己活得更辛苦。今天，英文的成绩派回了，虽然只是最初期的，但却让我感到一点点的不安。拿到成绩后，我告诉自己，无论如何，都要在英文方面有一定的成就，但却不懂自己有没有这样的本事，若真的想创任何成就，往后的日子更需要努力了。不懂是不是到了十八岁，情绪上的变化也比以前多了，也强了。以前一点都不担心的事，现在反而会开始担心，就像是该开始对自己的人生负点责任了。我没有那些人这样会想，在中学时期已经开始为未来打算，希望现在开始还没太迟吧。。
往后的生活，稳定的收入是缺不得的，然而，成就也是一样的。

今天，在和Jason一起去健身房后，回到家大约十分钟，就下去游泳了，这次也有爸爸的陪行。在游完后，刚回到家，拖着满累的身体坐在电脑前，才刚坐下，妈就吩咐我帮她扫地，因为在昨晚已经答应了，所以也不能推辞她，就带着不甘愿的心情帮她，而当她在多叫我一声时，我却用很不好的语气回应她，她忍了。。。而过后，爸和她吵了起来，而我的心情也不是很好，也就这样的再与她起了争执。过后，我感到非常后悔，为了这般小事，竟然对她如此不礼貌的吼叫,发脾气。我竟然忘了那道理，“没有人是欠你的，没有人应该承受你的脾气，没有人是应该理所当然的对你好”..好后悔，好惭愧，却还是说不去那句对不起。。

偶尔还是会想，若当时没遇见，就不会有现在所谓的回忆，有时想要绝情点，但却发现我没有能力，还是会在想，她过得好吗？开心吗？我还终是会有如此多余的‘关心’...

现在的我，只想着把两件事做好，“提升知识，增强体力"。。
知识； 想在学院有点成就，好让父母会骄傲地说，他是我儿子。
体力；竟然冥冥中注定我是巨蟹座的，就该好好的保护我所爱的人，家人及朋友。。不让他们受到任何伤害。。

我喜爱英文，却又喜欢用中文，可能中文才能准确地说出我的想法，而我却还没有这样的能力以英文写出吧。。
不想再为了任何小事而生气了，因为我学会了一个道理， “把任何你觉得生气的事来和死亡做比较，你就会发现，在死亡面前，所有的事，都只是小事一桩罢了"

~~十八岁的天空，照常飞翔~~
*林闻为 上*

Red Box + Shopping day @ Gurney

okay~~~~~ last night..promised Jason for gym at 10am next day -.- and sorry lol..overslept ..
wdf i alr tried to sleep earlier..and i did as well..2am sleep 10am wake up should be no problem right? zzz..but woke up at 7..too early..went back to sleep and became 11.30am wake up lol -.-
5 misscall , 2 messages . ARGH SAD -.- but nvm..redbox and shopping still on!

after cleaning up and bath , start picking everyone for the trip :D
went to Gurney and arrived around 2 something..1st destination , red box reception!
wdf sia..the receptionist there..so lansi..somemore with her impolite attitude -.- wdf..
Louis was going to complain about that lol .. but luckily..she changed her attitude at the end ..
made a membership card for RM5 (i didn't know it was so cheap lol)

ok..booked room for 3 - 6pm~ room 18~ aiseh..lucky number in cantonese huh :D
and what the heck sia..when the receptionist told us the room number , why must she mention it's a non-smoker room? we look like smokers meh? -.- zzz si noob

having a damn fun and crazy time there :D sour ribena taste so nice lolx
sang alot EMO song there..but can't get EMO leh.. and just realized..alot songs damn hard to sing at K sia =.=

after that..went to Clinic Cafe for dinner LOL..1st try there..alot nurse..but wdf la..almost all male 1 -.- ok..made orders for foods..and we been taking photos there all the time lol..and there was a great view too :D i mean for the sea~

those foods served there..okok nia -.- not very tasty eh..but after awhile , a nurse , girl 1 lol..xiao mei mei -.- and Jason looks like damn interested with that girl..keep saying "hey look at that girl..her uniform so big eh , not her size la..but damn cute la wei" < LOL
maybe shes just a nurse in doctor uniform -.- hahahaha

after the dinner~ still sang sang awhile be4 back :D sang until around 9pm or so..then just about to go home lol..after dropped Louis and Jason..while we were on our way home (me and Tengz) , he suddenly asked for RAMLEE BURGER! lolx..just nice..we just at around 7A there~ went there and purchased 2 burgers ~ and finished it at my SECRET PLACE! :D Yummy , a tasty 1!

after that , went up Tengz's house for drama lol..then on my way home :)
reached home around 20 mins or so..IMBA DRIVING MAN!


OK! sad story begins here , another *lonely* chinese mooncake festival ( Mid - Autumn)
ok la..nvm -.- since alr 17 years le..1 more year doesn't matter anyway.. wonder what i gonna do tomorrow sia..sure damn lots of ppl holding lantern and walk around the parks..mooncake also..zzz..this year i think my house don even have mooncake -.- bo lang heng jiak mooncake eh..sien nia...

i found that..my writing skill is better when im EMO sia..especially in chinese .. sibei wu wen cai eh haha..and now wan EMO also can't alr :( feels aparting..shang xin mang..(AK i noe u sure disappointed that u can't see me EMO anymore hahaha)
might EMO for the coming exams , but i think nervous more than EMO man! PANIC MAN!

ok la..account test on this coming friday..shang xin mang..i have no basic , yet somemore lazy with those format stuff -.- holy shit liao this time..zzz..nvm..work hard for results! no 辜负！
memang tak boleh Spend Money Susah Sendiri~

~*Nickdesire*~

This is what i think now , Always want and Always will

ok..midnight..and things came up my mind again..
everythings comes to the end now , sometimes , there're things that u will still need to face in the future , why don choose to face it earlier? so problem can be solved as earlier as you want to.
i know i been talking about the end months ago , yet it can't be ended , but this time i guess it really ended lol..

ok..i choose to be frankly , and speak everything out of what i thought and what i have in my mind,
i don wan to have any misunderstanding in my friendship , i treasured my friends , all of them..
when i think there're something going wrong , i'd rather frankly tell the problem out then keep it untold , untold stuff doesn't fun , yet misunderstand would kill ur friendship..
i appreciate my friendship , and i don't wanna lost them if i can keep them forever ,
especially for the friends here ,those that i will never want to lost ,
*Boon Khai *Jason *Wei Teng *Louis *Chun Liang *Aik Khuan *Alwin *Wen Zhe *Ivan
and so on , but for those listed above , i will never ever want our friendship came to it's end :D
and i guess it will never happen too hehe..

okay..look through back on what i've wrote for the passed months , feel so surprised that i been through such incident , and everything that happened, they're part of my memories , i wanna note them down , and remember forever , be my best memories , till the day i lost my breath.

Btw , heard from friend that a CHC student is in ICU now..cause of accident in this morning ,
although i don't know him much , but i've saw him in school before , hope u can get through all of this and be safe at the end...
Accident happen anywhere and anytime , i choose to be frankly , it's because i don wanna have any regrets in my life , i afraid that if 1 day i've bump into an accident , i might lost the chance to tell everything , compared to life & death , all these things are really little things , to speak it out , is way better than keep it inside heart. I don wan to have any regret in my life , and for the rest of my life , so start from now , i will just be honest and be frankly for everything , for whatever i want to do and want to say , i'll never keep inside heart anymore..

Appreciate your life , so others will appreciate you in return ,
treasure what you treasured , love what you loved .

~Nickdesire~

10 bucks , fulfilled what i need for a night LOL

okokokokokokok! look at the clock now -.- it's ...hmmm..10.18pm! the date is 15th of September!
ok..from this moment and so on , no more emo stuff -.- wdf sia..emo stuff..bullshit sia..wasted my time , my life , my energy..and somehow still get me a new nickname -.- Emo Nick .. rofl .. and even caused my test to be such an epic failure.. GOSH

ok , fell asleep when trying to workout at home -.- and missed my dinner time lol..
sis went for work , parent out for dinner , alone at home :( ftl..
serious , i need a friend sia..a friend who in the same situation with me LOL.. like everytime alone for dinner 1 -.- cuz wdf sia..i can't believe that i need a dinner partner .. ridiculous man..
well .. maybe sometimes , not everyday , if everyday also out for dinner , wallet will be damn pain man

yesterday , went dinner with Jason and Teng at AsiaCafe or something like that , i damn like the fried rice stall there sia , every foods sells there is so damn damn damn damn nice -.- but the amount ah..abit less lor.. no idea whether is the amount of food too little , or either i eat too much lol..but i never feel full after take the foods there .. ok..Teng been looking for Ramlee Burger LOL..we went from Air Itam to his house..can't even find a stall of the burger -.- ffs sia..Raya Day and those stall suddenly disappear ... zzz..
ok..i missed out my dinner tonite -.- and was really looking for someone who can take dinner with me, ends up..suggestion from Wenzhe + Alwin , "take dinner alone la brotherrr" fine fine fine -.- dinner alone..actually i damn hate alone..the feel sibei scary , or maybe im fear of it..and also..i don wan to feel that im alone .. but im really alone wad..sibei sohai nia..zzzz...ok.went downstair..wasted 10 bucks , bought dinner + 1 extra takeaway Ramlee Burger LOL..just because i couldn't find it ytd LOL..ok..tonite dinner really abit over amount -.- damn full after the rice..yet still got 1 burger takeaway lehh...gosh..more intake..more workout .........zzzz

Tomorrow , Thursday , 16th of September -.- guess it gonna be tough sia..we going for Dam Hiking again , holy shit..the inclined there..imba man..legs gonna be tired soon lol , and Jason and me decided to go for Gym after the Hiking , then maybe follow by swimming too .. woot..a tough + challenging day , gotta love it much <3 .. lets see what gonna happen tmr :D

‎~ Learn to be independent , get use to loneliness ~

Happy Day? or Sad Day?

okay..5 something in the morning..and i have decided to blog..
okay..yesterday..8th of September , it was supposed to be a wonderful day..until i found something out
oh well..even though i found something out , yet that doesn't affect me i perhaps..things were so good until the night..sometimes i seriously wonder..why can't life be just simple..i want a simple life..a very simple 1 is fine for me..but usually..things that u hoping for won't come for you without any prices..

Night..home..actually nothing's have changed..but i had the weird feeling that..why are the surrounding so strange to me..a good friend of mine asked.."how's your date?" i wondered..is that consider a date? nvm..doesn't matter anyway..home..bath..found something wrong..and somehow the something is finally solved..things cleared now..yet..no matter what we do in the future..it will just show unfairness to both party..

actually there are 3 things i treasured the most at the moment..
The 1st 1 of course it's my family..i love my family..especially my mum and my elder sister..they provide support to me all the time..and i'm sincerely thanks them so much..and i'm sure that whoever try to go against my family..i swear i'll just do anything for my family..no matter at what cost

2nd thing that i treasured the most..my brothers..after the lastest gathering..i found that..all my brothers are the best..they're my brothers..my buddy..my man..giving help when i need..ofcos in return i will just do whatever i can to help them as well..well i guess i told some of you about that..the feeling i hate the most..and it's the feeling that..when friend is in trouble..and i couldn't do anything to help them..i hate this feeling..and im so sick of this feeling..i want to help my friends..i'd like to see them in happy always..and not covered by those sad story or whatever on earth that might make me losses their smiles..

the 3rd thing..is her..yes..the first girl i fell for and yet i'm not like just telling for fun..and seriously..i do tried..im so mind about whatever happened to her..she sad -i sad..she happy-i happy..well..way typical..but i like it..what i can say is..her innocent look is just so irresistable..i love everything about her..love her everything...and also it's what that driving me crazy..i treasure every moment when i'm with her..i appreciate her words..whatever she said..might be a small deal..but it means a thing to me... but somehow sadly.. just like what i've say..life's not simple..obstacle of life is everywhere..well..part of life..today..5 something in the morning..woke up just because of parent's quarreling..i seriously wondered..what if my dad or mum chooses another person as their wife/husband..will things still goes like this? is this also 1 of the obstacle of life?i've totally no idea..

sad day , emo day , i'll do whatever i can..to prevent anything bad happening on me..
although life sucks , but im still trying my best to make it perfect imperfectly.

*~Nickdesire~*

September Update : The Awakening

okay..this might take you guys about several minutes to read it

okay..this is what i wrote on this morning..after my english lecture..

Recalling from what i have learned in this morning..Teacher said
' life is not that simply..it's full of obstacles..it's not like when you say i love you to someone..and the someone will say i love you back to you..'
yeah..from my opinion..Nothing's that simple..well..if u get something in too simple way..you probably not gonna appreciate it..for whatever you want..you'll always have to fight and work hard for it..don't hope life can be easy..just wish that u can be as tough as your life is..be strong for achieving your goal..yet , remember what u had and treasure what u have..

I wondered..when i said i love you..why can't you just love me back in return like what i did..oh well..love is selfish..as i know..sometimes sacrifice is really needed to get it done..love someone is to wish someone will have their happiness life..and not to have someone in your life..so as long as you can be happy..i don't mind who's the 1 that giving you your happiness life..even though that's not me..

i have done whatever i can..and i'm willingly to do those..just for your smiles..yes..ur smiles mean everything to me..EVERYTHING..but..it's time for awakening..my emotional been follow after yours..a little thing that you did unintentionally that you might didn't even notice it..but it's mean a thing for me..and also..a word from you in the morning..might even spoil my mood for the entire day..yet..i been still so obsessed with it..but now..no more..i will still do whatever i can to help you out if u asked for it..but..i won't disturb you anymore..this would be the best solution for everything..

Life sucks , but i'm still trying my best to make it perfect imperfectly .

August update

ok..been months ago since i updated my blog..and when i read thru my own blog..i feel funny for what i've wrote lol -.- ok wadever..dumped form 6 for college..sigh..i thought i get used to it..but actually i don't..and even making me to be more hate learning in BM -.- sick of BM..sigh..

ok..offcially a INTI student now..and leading "ANOTHER" new life -.- lmao..1st day in college..1 word to describe it..sleepy ..... wdf.. late sleep in the day be4 it..only had like 3 hours of sleeps..woah..actually can say that..college life is damn relax without assignment..oh well..this is what i think right now..might be changing later on when those assignment/tests come...no class on every Tuesday for this semester :) woot..1 day rest is cool~

well..between these few months..alot of things have changed..guess everything turning good ~ i'll try my best to update my blog frequently..it's a good habit to update blog everyday yeah...doesn't it? :) hehe..ok ends here for today

the truth

well..been like 1 month +.. since 7th of April..i still remembering the date =]
okay..after the day..and after what i heard of my friend's opinion..i guess i get what should i do now..and also..after a few views thru some link in fb..finally i get the real now..the cruel..which always been hiding behind of truth..seriously..it's not nice to do something in a rush..
sometimes ppl say..if u really wanna get something...u must really work hard to get it.
but..even though u worked hard..it doesn't mean u can get it after u show ur hardwork..
whatever..finally i can get my off the obsession..o well..i hope i can..form6 life is so tough and busy tbh..but luckily..i guess i used to it alr..
well..work hard for future..and for life..

NEW SKOOL LIFE

ok..i got sent to SMJK Heng Ee for my form 6 studies..and it's for art stream..well..saved my works for changing stream..but then..i have to change skool..ok wadever..class started 3 days..and im half dead seriously..

woke up at 6..went down at 6.20 or so..and make my way to skool everyday..
arrived skool around 6.40 or so..and have to wait tills 7.30 for class starts..
well..some teachers are quite kind..and some of them is really trouble seeker..

ok..life getting busy..when i was on my slacking sessions..was hoping skool can start asap..but now..i hope i can slack again..life packed now..and im likely insufficient of time everyday..
o well..for the 1st few days..skool ends at 2pm..reached home about 2.30pm..slacked for 30 mins..and go for swim..until 4 or so..came home..take my lunch..and bath...then go for Gym.
everytime when im bak from gym..it usually be around 6-7 pm..and now..im free =]
but then..what if i have to attend tuition class? will i ever be able to make it?lmfao..gl on arranging time yeah Nick..

ok..actually things are easy..but just becuz of something which really messed my mind up..and tears me down as well..seriously..i got not enuf of time to think of this..and i shouldn't waste any time on this as well...ok fine..i guess im FINISHED now..and well..reborn is the only way now =]
Life after FINISHED is called reborn

Day of Awakened

Sunday..a resting day for me~ not gonna do anything..
well..last week..it was still like in a rain..or mist..and now..rain over..mist disappear..
heart was dead..and it revived..now im having a new life~
well..i take everything as a dream..and now im awake from the dream..
not gonna bother to care anymore..thing gonna be alrite..and i not gonna disturb anymore too

well..2 more weeks for driving test..and the only motivation for me to get the test now..only
left that i can fetch my friends out every week..nothing else..whatever..as soon as time passes..i'll get use with it .. hope school can reopen asap..so i won't have time to think over these things..luckily it was only a week..and now ur shadow finally left me :D

gonna pass this Good Sunday at home :D watching drama over days ~.~
finally a resting day for me -.- im having serious aching muscle now lol .. god damn it..hope i can use to it asap -.- otherwise weekday gonna be a big suffer for me :s

ciao..gotta take my lunch and start watching drama for the weekend :D
tata

it's all becuz of lazyness~

ok..i alr bored with updating blog daily..so decided to make it 2 days for 1 post ~.~ and gonna be summarizing way..

so far it's been like a week since i try to keep this routine~ and it seem to be successful as well..and now im attending a gym class as well..going for swim every morning at 9~ and gym at 1 in the afternoon~ life slowly became busy..and i love busy life :D
hang'd out with best friends :D and we watched "Kick-Ass"~ lmao..seriously idk how to describe this movie lol..violence/ sex / scary -.- we got all this things in the movie LOL..and there was a little girl called hit girl..wdf..shes so freaking cruel lol..and her cruel-ly act seriously shock'd us =.= like pull out a knife and st8 poke on others..or either headshot others in with 1 bullet -.- lol

bak at 2am..and freaking tired -.- get everything done..and it alr like 4am or so ~ so happy that i finally used to early wake life~ i hate staying late in night now..days would be shorter if u stay night tbh ~.~

whatever..ends up
ciao <33

new hair style~ lmao

hehe..woke up..clean up..swim..chat as usual
about 1pm or so..mum and sis woke up..and we went downstair for brunch..
sis was going for hair styling at 2pm..and mum asked me go have a haircut as well..
ok fine..since fren been complaining that my hair looks such a mess..so im going too
reached there..been waiting for around 1 hour..then till my turn to have the hair cut..
after having the hair cut..my hair look no diff with a chung ling student LOL...freaking short and that's it..but whatever..new hairstyle = new life haha

ok..went to auntie Evelyn's house after that..showed them my new hairstyle..and everyone claiming that too short le -.- but atleast tidied alot..~.~
start feel bored with blogging tbh..update daily is causing me being lazy haha..changed to update every morning instead of midnight hehe..

about time to go for my brunch with sister~
ciao everyone <3
and u're still treating me so coldly..

Practical #5 + QTI~ Easy Day

woke up as abit late..since that the QTI test alr delayed to 2pm..no point waking up too earlier in the morning..so everything that i usually do in the morning also delayed..went downstair for swim at 12pm..and it was freaking hot as sunlight just strike on the pool -.-

until 1pm or so..back to home..and get myself clean'd..then wait for uncle come to fetch me..
after reached the centre..still need to wait uncle to test a girl on road driving/centre training~
so my practical started at 2.30 or so..been waiting at the sitting bench for around 30 mins..
after that..start my practical..and practise everything for twice..then start test -.-
the tester was a white hair uncle~.~ and uncle told me that this white hair uncle don like ppl taking shortcut near pesta there -.- and u noe what..this cipet uncle..start signing on my papers while i just drive till half way -.- WDF? made me worried whether if i alr failed the test or wadever..btw..only mati enjin once when leaving the centre~.~ no mati enjin on road at all~~~~ weeee..but did it alot when parking -.- this car de clutch so hard to control..o well...i passed the test anyway..

mum and sis were shopping at Queensbay..and they asked me to go over and meet them there~
been waiting for uncle to drop me there..but uncle looks like freaking busy ..so he keep ask me to wait for him -.- from 4pm wait tll 5pm..and i just told him that im going to Queensbay..after that..he dropped me there 1st..when i just reach Queensbay..they're about to go home -.- without telling me~ wdf..i went in Queensbay and walk for half round..after calling mum..then only noe that they going home..LOL

ok..went home..was going to my auntie house..but quarrel'd with my sister while in the lift..so plan'd get ruined..in the end..just staying at home..and i fell asleep as i was overtired i guess..
after woke up..mum brought dinner back..and she thought i was still going to my auntie house..and what funny is..she's going at 10pm?wdf..ppl got skool and they need to sleep okkk?

so not going...and been chatting with Alwin & Ryan till the midnight..that pok pok boon logged in and told me some stupid stuff -.- wdf..hes slowly turning into a dangerous person to me ~.~
zzz..hope things can get solved asap..whatever..abaout time to swim for today..

Ciao everyone <3

Practical #4 + Gurney Trip

today~ woke up at 6am ~ after listened to b2st song to make myself being energetic..went to take a bath around 6.45..then went downstair and wait for uncle~ after get up the car..went back to training centre to proceed for the practical~
start training from training centre > queensbay ~ then back to trainig centre again~
keep that repeating until 9am or so..and i going to have a QTI tmr o.O and i thought it was the uncle who testing me..until Celine told me..then i just noe there's a tester -.- god damn it..

went back home..slacked for awhile..then went downstair for daily swim~ swimmed for 1 hour for today :D kinda enjoy the feel inside water~ i sense peaceful , quietness in water <3 and i have lots of time to think when im swimming :D hehe

went home..online for awhile..then take a short nap while waiting time passes -.-
until 1 pm or so..woke up and get ready for Gurney Trip with Aik Khuan -.-
arrived there after 1 hour or so..and walked around the mall..then go for a movie..
"Clash of the Titan"~ Nice Graphic..but it's way like a summary movies..as it doesn't express much..bad storyline though..

after movie..stupid Aik Khuan went home immediately..he just ran up to bus and dumped me alone there..-.- i was so freaking bored and lonely over there..and was thinking to sms someone~
o well..i sms'd Alwin/Boon Khai/Wei Teng/Zhi Hui~ only Wei Teng is replying at the 1st..as..Boon Khai went out for exercise so he didn't bring his phone with him..Alwin was kinda busy so he replied about 1 hour later..no idea about Zhi Hui.. i wanted to sms her..but no topic to chat :( and it would be weird if u sms someone to chat nothing -.- so decided not to sms her~ ^^

mum reached about 1 hour later..start shopping again..and i was so freaking bored..after that..went to Nordam for dinner~ saw 3 pairs of couples there..and i suddenly have the urge to knock all of them down in 1 shot -.- LOL..cuz of jealousy i guess .. bt whatever..i didn't do it hehe :P taken dinner over there..and freaking LUI BEG is full again..i hate it..

reached home about 10pm or so~ and thought i was still going for QTI tmr at 7..and uncle informed me late about that my QTI had postponded to 2pm in the afternoon~ im so freaking wory and nervous now -.- as i don wanna disappoint anymore :D especially...hehe.. ^^
god bless me <3 and u bless me too <3
haha..

good night everyone <3
tired day :D

Pc Fair again! without "wallet" this time

woke up around 11 something today..and couldn't make my way to swim today..as the pool is crowded with bunch of retards.. -.- ok..nvm..take it as a weekend rest :D hehe
got nothing to do again..and i felt that my laziness had came back for me..omg..-.-
sms'd Chun Liang and ask him come over to fetch me if he going for PC fair..about 3pm or so..they came to fetch me..and Wei Teng was going to give me a surprise..well..luckily he didn't..otherwise hes gonna be sad as i won't bring my PSP out without his attendance :D

ok..6 of us going for PC Fair again..me / Jason / Chun Liang / Jing Sheu / Wei Guo~
haha..thought i will never be pc fair..but im here again-.- to get over my nightmare last nite..
hehe..no long pants / thick shirt / Lui Beg / sport shoes for today LOL :D a relax 1 hehe..
PISA still freaking crowded -.- and it was just like u get things for free there -.- we went around..and Chun Liang bought a camera ~ rest of us didn't buy anything ..but wadever..atleast we got some Sight Benefit~ lol..lots of Chiobu there hahaha..and WeiGuo was going to faint as there are too many ppl -.-

after PC Fair..dropped Jing Sheu back to Wei Guo's house..as he got work at 6..after that..we went to Kayu for our lunch..Wei Teng and me was freaking hungry as we didn't take our breakfast -.- we been there for 2 hours lol..lunch + chit-chat + PSP-ing LOL..
after that..dropped Jason home..as tmr is monday -.- everyone gonna be busy..but i went to WEi Teng house for PSP-ing! haha..while we playing game..he was keep replying on the NPC in the game..say hi to those NPC who saying "hi " in the game lol -.- retarded act but made me laugh tbh...

Parent came to fetch me about 9 or so..and they were quarreling in the car..idk about the reason..as i was listening to my MP3 -.-..reached home at 10+..chat with frenz/fbing till 2am or so..and i have to wake up 6 later for practical..and the uncle even worry that i couldn't wake up lol..well...tmr gonna be a good day :D i sensed it hehe..

ok good night everyone <3

Fun + Interesting Outing Day

forgot to mention about those "little thing" that happened :D
ok..be4 i managed to sleep last nite..stupid Weili gave me a shock..
when i finish chat with Zhi Hui..i turn over my face and sleep..and when i turn over..the stupid Weili is facing me like 5cm away -.- WDF he doing sticking so close to me when sleeping..wow..nice shock be4 sleep LOL..
ok..fell asleep around 2 or so..and woke up for awhile about 6 o'clock or so..Weili asked me what time is it now..and it was like 6.40am..so i told him..then continued sleeping..and wdf..it's just like..i blinked..and that retard was standing there and he looks so freaking tall when i see him from that angle..WDF another shock from him..ffs..i thought it was my uncle..as from the height..and i was being curious why my uncle is still standing there when it's alr 7 something..
after i rubbed my eyes and look clearly..zzz...it's the stupid Weili standing there..and he just covered some of the light from my look..so i couldn't manage to see clear -.- !@!@!
2 shock in a day..cool enuf..

ok..Jason reached my house around 1pm or so..and Louis is here as well..but i was taking my meal after 25 hours no intake of foods..and it was curry mee..and i knew that im gonna have stomachache in afew hours later..after i finished the mee..we started our outing trip for the weekend! :D hehe..1st destination~ fetch Aik Khuan..we went to CHCHS there..as Aik Khuan is having a hair cut just right opposite to our secondary skool :D and i thought he had done his hair cut..so we can just fetch him immediately when we reached..but actually he was just having his hair cut when we reached..we been waiting there for about 30 mins -.- until he done his hair cut..and Wei Teng was pissed off as he been waiting for us for 2 HOURS lol..but it weren't our fault.. -.- we didn't want to be late too..ok.and while we're on the way..was having some traffic jam..and that even turned him on -.- and when we reached Mutiara..he looks like going to eat all of us in the car..when he just get on car..@#@#!@!&^*! again..nice 1 .. everyone just get scold as usual..and luckily..he wasn't angry when he knew that i told Celine something about him LOL..and he just simply asked through..after picked him up..we went to Gurney to pick Chun Liang..and he waited us for 2 hours and 30 mins lol..even longer..but he doens't look fierce haha..

ok..everyone is in the car now! trip is now started! 1st destination~ Sunshine Square Old Town for lunch..was going to PC Fair..but Chun Liang was hungry and there was a freaking serious traffic jam near there..taken lunch at Old Town..and we been telling about some retarded jokes..a joke about a waller * Lui Beg in Hokkien* lmfao -.- after we taken our lunch..time for PC fair.. oh wdf..my 1st time to Pc fair..and i guess it would be my last time as well..a freaking scary nightmare for me lol -.- as i been tahan-ing 4 waves of attack from my "Bank" and im out of "CARD" OMFG..-.- i couldn't describe the PAIN in words seriously..and im so glad that i survived through this PAINS...FML

so i went home..and changed clothes..then we fetched Aik Khuan back..as he got something to do around 7..after we dropped him back..he went to Paya Terubong for DRINKS lol..not dinner xD
every of us ordered a soft drinks..and sitting there chit-chat..and i been playing PSP with Wei Ting..Monster Hunter 2g! haha..Louis was freaking worry about his assignment..when others don even bother to give a damn about it..-.- he seem like taking everything in college very serious now..o well..good to see tbh..ok..dropped Louis home after 3 hours..and 4 of us left went to Khaleel for dinner/supper :D hehe

after that..we dropped Wei Teng back..then baru my turn -.- and things became late just because of transport..when i get to noe how to drive..things gonna be easy ..seriously..ok..reached home about 1am hehe :D

ok..friends is more important than everything..and i not gonna think of any other things..-.- seriously i will sacrifice anything jst for the sake of my friends..friends more important than girls =p hehe..and i admit that that's something wrong with me last nite..haha...gotta attend my practical #4 and QTI on Monday and Tuesday..and i have to wake up about 6 in the morning..and start driving at 7..gf & gl to u Nick -.- lol

Good night everyone <3
gotta be a good day everyday now :D

Practical #3

ok..today going for my practical #3~
woke up about 8am or so..online and had a chat with Aik Khuan...about 1 hour of chat~
until about 9.30 or so..went downstair for swimming..and i decided to go for swim about 30 mins every morning ~ after that Gym at afternoon :D and everything is gonna be good :D hehe
o well..i lost 8Kg of weight this year LOL ~ about 3 months + doing nothing..and 15 days+ of simply works :D haha..gotta be more hardworking~ -.- not hardwork..just stop being lazy hehe
ok..been waiting uncle since 10am or so..and he finally called me at 12pm -.-..then start my practical..gf..today gonna be a 震撼的一天。。
ok..as what i expected..stupid car..keep 震 like no tomorrow..and seriously i felt disappointed .. as i not doing well for today...everything just like messed up..and even back to the training centre..things still bad and even worse..parking fail..bukit fail..tiga penjuru also failed LOL -.- gf
about 2pm or so..drove to my auntie house :D as no one at home -.- everyone went out..parent went out settle thing..sis went to holidays inn for works..so i also go out lor =p

when i just get out from the car..i saw my grandma standing there..and after that..ofcos i saw my grandpa as well haha..then i noe there they must be 拍拖 liao la -.- hahaha..o well...they just taking their lunch there..and car is out of battery or something..so they just wait for someone to repair it lol..had a chat with grandparent out there..then slowly walk into my auntie's house :D
they were kinda surprised to see me there lol..as they didn't expect i would be there at that time haha..ok..had a kinda long chat with my auntie..and no matter what i talk about..she's willing to listen and even ask question about it..and she seem interesting with whatever topic i say..different with my mum..when i telling her things about my friends..she don even give a damn about it..seriously..that's the different between my mum and my auntie lol..

ok..went to batu lancang de pasar with auntie :D haha..bought lunch and picked stupid zhi hui bak from her friend's house..after that..been sticking with my mp3 all the time..until weili back from skool..and time seem passes quite fast today..o well..atleast not like thurday...every mins is like an hour -.- taking hell long to wait for time passes..haha..as time passes..it's alr 6 something..weili is back..o well..seem that he was kinda angry that day..that's why he showed his rudeness that day..but today is different..hes not like that anymore..and even start with his lame joke etc etc..and uncle been teaching me alot of new keep fit method lol -.- and every of them will make u tired seriously..and he say that if u can train with that method every day for 5 mins..u will be thin in months LOL..only 5 mins but also can't tahan seriously -.- freaking tired..that's all like gymnastic way of method LOL..

ok..time passes freaking fast..and weili went for tuition..so i been listening to my mp3 at the front yard..and sms with Alwin / Jason etc etc..after that..i tried to make a conference call..but epic failed -.- what the heck is "request failed"? -.- god damn it..but whatever..i hitted the total useage thingy..and i can make costless call :D! lol so called BOon Khai and chit-chat with him for about 1 hour + lol..after the chat..i jst realized that..i didn't eat anything for the whole day -.- except the little bit of rice in the morning after swim..nothing else after that lol..yes..i do feel hungry..but just got no appetite..no idea why im facing this :s

ok..after awhile..i get everything done and prepared to sleep..just like some exercise i do be4 i sleep etc..but 1 thing i couldn't do over there -.- and that's updating my blog~ and i have to postpond for 1 day !!@!@ -.- my record broke lol..daily update gone..
had a chat with Zhi Hui be4 sleep..and i just noe that there'r so many changes in 4 months..freaking many -.- but whatever..ppl do change..me as well..but im sure im turning good instead of bad :D haha

ok..gonna take my bath and hang out with my best buddies :D
Cya everyone <3

WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON?!

ok..the 2nd day of having sleeping problem..swt..went to sleep at 5am last nite..*BLINKED* hey..i think it should be 8am i guess?haha.. *woke up & take a look @ my phone* OH WTF 6.15am ~ SHITTTTTTT...went back to bed and try hard to sleep again..*BLINKED AGAIN* o gosh..8.00am..i hate this larrrr omfg -.- ok..15 mins after i woke up..parent came back from party last nite~was freaking bored..so sit infront of my desktop..-.-..staring at facebook wall..lmao..seriously..something just made me over excited..and now i just realized im exciting for nothing..-.-absolutely nothing..zzz..8am..and the 1 i been waiting still haven't online -.- ok fine..since im so free..should just go for a swim yeah?ok..persuaded dad go downstair and swim with me -.-..funny him..changed swimsuit..but sitting at the edge of swimming pool instead of swimming in the pool..whatever..he don wan swim..i swim lor haha..swim about 5 rounds -.-..kao..arms feel so tired..and dad looks like freaking cold -.-..ok..decided to go home~ thought i would spend like 2 hours for swim..and ends up..45 mins LOL

5 mins to get back to home~ and only 1 toilet is available as the 1 in master bedroom is not allow to use -.-..dad went to take his bath 1st..so i online~ oh finally :D online ler~that's what i been waiting & exciting -.-..zzz..i think i have gone mad tbh ~ nothing good to be excited for tbh-.-...
ok..chat until about 12pm..she finally went offline -.-..ok..went to take my brunch with Jorene & Maydelyn~ went to KFC at Bukit Jambul~ after lunch taken..only 1 pm -.- kao..im so so so so bored..and i got nothing to do..but i swear..it's only for today..as tmr i gotta find something to do..instead of sitting home for hours -.- ok fine..today i been sitting home for hours! god damn it..why? i got no idea..sitting home..wait for time to passes..until night time -.- then i gonna be excited again~ -.-..seriously..happy time passes easily..and contrary..hard time is so suffer to pass -.- lalala..whatever..finally i managed to survived through those "HARD" time -.- ~ god..almost get killed by the boredom~

o btw..uncle sms'd me and say that i have to attend the practical tmr at 11.45am :D
hehe..practical again ~ ^^ then soon i can get my L license etc etc..then i don have to ask ppl to fetch me anymore..instead..it's my turn to fetch ppl out for kai kai :D woo~and it's my turn to get the call! "hey hey~ it's not ur call~ i get the call!" WOO!

hope time can passes as fast as possible -.- i want May! MAY CEPAT MARI LA TOLONG~
zzz..so happy to see she came online :D haha.. -.- but right after she went offline..i lost my mood -.- and became DOwn~ but whatever -.-..soon i gonna use to it haha..

good night..time to bed -.- 2 hours of sleep gonna causes alot of mistake tmr.. -.- gl on practical #3 har Nick :D

good night and ciao everyone <3

OMFG??A FREAKING FREAKING GOOD DAY!

o well..life is unpredictable..seriously LOL..it is..
ok..thought today gonna be a boring day~ and indeed..it is..but just for the morning and afternoon haha~ and unfortunately-.- i look like having some sleeping problem ~ but not insomnia..as im still able to fall asleep..but just not for long..slept at 7am last "morning"..and woke up 2 hours later...damn..i just got no idea with why i couldn't sleep well-.-..o well..seriously..something is coming up to my mind over and over~ yes..it's her images o.O
damn la..im sick -.- yes completely sick~ mad somemore LOL..oh well well well=.=..i have made my decision tbh~ and seriously she's so adorable haha~

ok..woke up at 9..1st of all..listen song..damn..im obsessed with Beast's songs..seriously -.-
ok..dad was nagging me as he keep saying that i didn't sleep etc etc..c'mon la..i do sleep..but just for 2 hours.. -.- after awhile..mum woke up as well..and asked me whether i got sleep anot etc etc..zZzzz..seriously that disturbed me listening & enjoying my songs sia..after awhile..they went out for praying my grandma~ after listening songs..i went to watch movies~ haha..trying to finish watching the 老友狗狗 today..from 9.30 or so..watch till 1pm -.-..and finally i finished the movie in 3 days lol..damn nice movie..funny & silly haha..usually after i finished a drama..usually i would be down for about 1-2 days..recalling those scene of the drama..i would feel sad/happy lol-.- ok fine..my EQ is low..and im easy to get influence by things ~

o ya..while watching movie..mum asked me to cook rice -.- fine..right after she called me..i went to cook the rice immediately..and about 1 min after the call hang up..she called me again..and ask me better go to cook it immediately..wdf? im cooking and wad u nagging again for? "hey ah wei..rmb faster cook..jiajia coming back to take lunch soon..rmb faster cook" -.- WDF..all is about her nia la..sien nia..ok..cooked rice..continue my drama..until about 1pm or so..everyone came back-.-..and we taken our lunch at home..dishes from Chap Tong last nite -.- and mum also bought some of them just now..after finished my movie..online for awhile..then..take a nap -.-
hey WDF..about 3 hours of sleep..also can dream dao alot things..and i knew that i dreamed of something..but after i woke up..i forgotten all -.- zZzzz..

ok..woke up..online online online..and ZH asked me to send her RM3..oh well..actually i feel that i quite sayang this cousin lar haha..she ask me send then i send immediately =.=..but o well..i sayang all cousins..except stupid WeiLi now..and i don even bother talk to him tbh..as his stupid + childish act disappointed me ..i not gonna talk to him for awhile i guess..and WOW OMG? stupid ZH stop using 1 word sms?and lots of words instead..haha..kinda happy to see that tbh -.- so i told her i gonna treat her Tao Cuisine in someday of May haha..o well..as a present for her bday as well ..

ok~ about 8 something came back..gotten 1 good news =] haha..sorry i cant share it here lol
and o ya..mum allowed me to go for Gym~ wee~ 3 months Gym~ ^^ gotta work hard for it seriously..and i only got 1 month left be4 skool starts~

besides that..i added 1 lenglui's msn today~ wow..and after awhile of chat..and i only realized that -.- she was the chiobu i mentioned ytd..hey wdf lol..this world so small hor...o btw..she was the 1st person i fetch as well..beside stupid uncle haha..when i told Ryan and Alwin..that the 2 ppl i been talking about..is exactly a same person..they were like..WOW LMAO LOL ROFL ~
well..it surprised the heck out of everyone seriously -.- me either~ haha

EVERYTHING IS SO GOOD TODAY~ I LOVE THIS DAY !! HAHA~

ok..about time to bed..its getting late xD
good night and ciao everyone <3

Practical #2~

ok..woke up way early today..as i have to go for my practical around 10 something..
so i woke up around 9~or i should say..Jorene woke me up around 9 -.-..she said she was late for works..so she called me instead of waking me up~
but whatever..-.-..as long as i can awake..it's doesn't matter with how the way it is-.-
ok..woke up..still freaking sleepy~Yawn~ so decided to listen to afew songs be4 i wash my face=.=..so as usual..i listened to Beast's Song :D! Mystery awoke me~ Bad girl amazed me~ just before shock is nice~ Shock me as well ^^ things became Easy ~

after get my face washed & taken my bath~ cooked a instand mee as my breakfast :D
then continue watch 老友狗狗 until uncle call me=.=..about 10am or so..2 ppl called me..1 is Alwin..as i asked him to wake me up right after his class..so he called me :D a responsible friend haha~ 2nd is..the uncle -.-..he scare i can't wake up..so he give a a call as well lol..about 30 mins later..uncle arrived~ so i went downstair and wait for him~ at the kopitiam there ^^

and surprisingly -.-.. the uncle ask me to drive when i get up the car.. omfg=.=..1st time drive on road..and i have to drive at this kind of situation -.- wdf...so many cars / curving road / narrow way -.- WDF LA...but fortunately..genius always have his way to solve the problem =p
seriously..abit nervous -.- with the clutch & the oil =.= and there's like a "mountain road"
leh leh .. hard lar~ for a beginner ...dotz..from Bukit Gambier..drive to Farlim..for changing car -.- then from Farlim...out to Highway~ btw..maybe it's becuz my 1st time driving on road..i suddenly feel that 60KM/hr is fast enuf-.-..or either more than enuf tbh :S beh kam har lor -.-
then from highway..back to training centre..as uncle have to fetch a girl back from centre =.=
hey hey..that was a chiobu leh~ and it would be my pleasure to send her home ^.^ but that idiot uncle..ask me drop myself home 1st be4 fetch her back! diu -.- my chance gone :( i sadly get off the car..then slowly walk back home -.- zZzzz...wadever..Friday go for practical again

after home..continue watch my drama~ the movie so funny~ lots of laughing point haha..
watch until 6 or so..Jorene asked me to take dinner with May and her~we went to 金湾 near the sungai Nibong 1~ the TOmyAm there really nice <3!! VOTED! haha :D and i told them about the chiobu thingy-.- and May even taught me to put the blame on uncle etc etc..making up the story LOL

reach home..continue with drama..as i got nothing else to do also..now i only can wait for skool reopen -.- nothing else i can do le~..watch watch har..suddenly fell asleep -.- until 12am! -.- gg..4 hours of nap..have to be AmKongJiao again..no need sleep liao~

after woke up..dota with Alwin and Ryan~ until 3am or so..since Alwin got no class tmr-.-..i asked him to fetch me out~ :D botanical garden run or kap chiobu or wadever..but that slacker say..botanical only got ah ma..bo chiobu -.- LOL ~ wadever..tmr baru decide liao~ OMG OMG..i found her!@!@!@ she's so attractive , lovely , kind , cute , adorable , beauty , sexy !@!@!@ o wait..wdf i talking -.-'' whatever~ ^^ im going for it!

nothing else for the day :D haha
tata everyone <3

Drama Day #1

woke up..parent was about time to go out~
mum came in my room..and asked me to buy my lunch at downstair..as i just woke up..so i don have any appetite tbh-.- so i didn't buy my lunch..and instead..i just finished up the leftover -.- of my sister..
ok..was kinda bored..but then..i found that there's some new movies on the table in living room~
woo~ drama~ an interesting 1..haha..called as “老友狗狗" lol..wanted to watch this..but due to lazyness..so i didn't borrow from my uncle -.- but then..luckily :D guess that my mum borrowed this from my uncle~ woo..day won't be boring anymore~ o well..atleast for awhile haha..from epi 1 watch till epi 3..then Jorene is about time bak from work..she called me and ask me out for dinner..about 5 mins later..she arrived~ so i went downstair...then we take our dinner at Kayu~
and just nice timing haha..May just finished her exam~ so she came to join us for dinner <3 ^^
we ordered a plate of Nasi Kandar~ Roti Nan Cheese~ Roti Bom~ and Roti Sardin~ lol..1st time try Roti SardiN~ it only cost Rm2.90..and im sure it's enuf to fill ur stomachache lol haha..

went back home..keep watching the movies~ from epi 1 > epi 6 today~ haha
then came online.chat with Alwin for about 2 hours + lol..all about FB stuff haha...ffs..seriously hes a failure stalker! lmao ^^ *(don be mad, u noe im joking about it..although im telling the true as well)*

he went offline about 12.30am or so..as he got a morning class in the next day...and Jisha (my senior) was telling me some infomation about form 6 stuff..shes a kind + nice senior tbh ^^
after that..went to SA + Dota with Ryan for about 2 hours..tills now-.-..3.46 am..and nice 1..i have to wake up at 9am tmr..as i got to attend my practical #2~ woo~ was worrying that i couldn't wake up..i purposely ask Alwin to be my "AlarmClock" lol..if i couldn't wake up tmr..hes dead! haha..

ok..about time to sleep..-.- good luck to myself tmr <3
Good night and Ciao everyone <3

Happy Day =]

ok..finally there's a day for outing~
woke up abit earlier today..about 11am or so..was having insomnia last night..and it was really hard to let me fall asleep again..
1st thing : facebook again..well..atleast something cheered me up on fb =] haha
the page i created..is having over 400+ ppl joining it~ woah..400+ is 1 day..sorta great work for Alwin , Ryan and me tbh =] (although i was the 1 who work most hard!)
Boon Khai sms'd me about 2pm or so..and asked me to hang out at night..as i wasn't sure whether im free at night anot..so i asked him to give me a call be4 he coming to fetch me~
about 4pm or so..finally the stupid Jorene get her ass out of her bed! after that , cousin was keep asking my sis to fetch them for shopping..he starts calling my sis since 12pm..till 4 or so..and most funny is..he even talked to me on msn... he said "your sister is sleep"..oh well..at 1st i didn't get what he mean lol..but..c'mon..hes only 8 yrs old..i think that's not bad for a 8 yrs old kid..atleast he can state that my sis is sleeping lol..

so decided to bring them for shopping..after taken my bath..went over to his house to fetch him..and his sister was still busy with housework..and we have to go home earlier tonight as they going to "cheng beng" in the next day..and they have to wake up be4 5am lol..After picked them..we went to Prangin Mall~ was going for movie..but due to time crashed..we have no choice..but have to cancel the movie :s took our lunch at the famous TomYam shop in Prangin~
and my cousins was quarreling over the chicken wings..-.-..how childish can he be lol..

after the TomYam shop..we went to McD to buy McFlurry~ lol..and after that..we went to Secret Recipe for desert~ woo~ we ordered Black Forest & White Chocolate Macadamia~
took some photos there..and no doubt..although my cousin is naughty..but hes so freaking cute lol..his weirdly act seriously amused us lol..

after that..we went around and continue shopping~ then we went to the top floor for the games..as my cousin wanted to play afew games there..and if we don't let him go for it..hes gonna be mad for big time! -.- swt...went over there..and played afew games..then we quickly send them home lol..but oh well..we went back to Farlim for our dinner be4 send him home..and just nice..i got a timing haha..as Jason they all just getting ready for outing..so i asked Boon Khai come over to Farlim to fetch me..so i don have to bother my sis to drop me somewhere haha..

Seriously..i had a great time and great fun with my friends =] BFF guys!
after we had fun for 2-3 hours..and it's alr 1am~ we went to Khaleel for our supper~
after we taken our supper~ we had a nice chat over there lol..everyone was laughing and joking with each other..sadly..some of them gonna start their school life very very soon..oh well..i mean college life~ so it might be lesser chance to get out with them :( but whatever..our friendship will still be the same =]
ok..it's late now..gotta sleep..otherwise mum gonna give me a big smack on my head lol-.-
Night and ciao everyone <3

< Pics is taken in Secret Recipe~
as my cousin and sister finished up the cakes..so im not posting
xD

Home Day #3

the 3rd day..i staying at home..
it's 5.37am now..and im just bored..
while listening to the music..like “雨爱”, i got no idea why these music turned my mood down..
and made me thought of so many things..
well..recalled on what i've done today..it's nothing..

woke up around 1 something...and thought that there would be a outing today..and when Auntie Evelyn called me and asked , i told her that im going out..well..i really thought that im going out lol..but..after all i just noe that everyone is busy with their own stuff..and all i gonna do right now is get my driving license 1st..be4 i trying to get anyone for outing again..o well..i will get it..but not right now..well..might take about 1 month or so..and i really hope that the uncle can arrange the date for practical asap..

oh well..we just didn't meet for about 1 week..but i feel our friendship is gradually growing distant..argh..maybe i should try not to bother others..seriously..it's always better to count on urself..than asking for others..ok good..luckily i get the idea before it's too late..and definitely i will done it on someday..

well..getting tired although i took a nap from 8 to 10 just now..lates in midnite doesn't sound good tbh..yeah..it's true that u always alone in the midnight..but u will be lonely as well..and i freaking hate the feel of being lonely..so i will try to wake up early and sleep early as well..and not having a different lifestyle with others..

good night everyone <3 Ciao~

Home Day #2

Omfg~ another home day..im dead -.- dead of boredom!
kewl..today woke up..then start fbing/dotaing/saing with Ryan & Stanley..
i feel that..im so freaking useless tbh-.-..i contribute nothing to the social~ but luckily no harm done as well lol -.- well..this kind of life not gotta be long..i promise =]
as my friends just get back to Penang today..might be some outing very very soon haha ^^

o well..from what i noe is..they're going out tomorrow ~ hope i would be free when they're going~
but i think i probably free when they ask me out..as i got nothing to do also-.- retard right?
shit la..im wasting my time my life my wonderful days of youth!! omfg - i hate this

ok..about night time..i dota with Alwin only..as Ryan is busy with his mx double xp or whatever shit is that..o fine..duo dota is good =] but unfortunately -.- we get pawned by the stupid AI~ omfg..i can't believ i even lost with troll -.- fuck that seriously..

i need school life..to get myself away from this kind of slackers' life~ god save me pl0x..or principal save me pl0x LOL..and what? Alwin say that im NO LIFE? o yeah -.-..i got no life now..but it's just temporarily~ won't be long i swear ..but kinda hurt when i noe that i got no life :( everyday just fb/sa/dota -.- nothing else~ seriously gotta do something good just for the sake of my gods -.-

ok..about time to bed~ woo..yeah~ 1 hour earlier than usual hehe ^^
night and ciao everyone <3

Home Day

WDF!! -.- was thought that i can go out today..atleast for the car practical training..but wow..how nice that the uncle sms'd me around 5pm and told me that it's rainy outside there..and he couldn't make his way to my home by 6.15pm =] so have to cancel the training..and somemore..he mentioned that he will discuss the time with me tonite..but he still didn't call me -.- damn..get disappointed again ~ diao ~ seriously i want to drive larrrrrrr....i wan learn to drive asap! ASAP! Omfg-.-..and u stupid just wasting my precious time..god damn it..i hate you -.-

omg~ today ~ 1st of April~ the date for the movie "Clash of the Titan" to be released~ wow..i been waiting for this movie tbh -.- as i watched the trailer..and it looks so freaking nice..hey..u noe what..Zues and SandKing was inside the movie too~ how cool that scene would be~ zZzzz...staying at home for 2 days alr-.- no matter what..i surely will go out on this Saturday -.- 100%!! dont want stay at home anymore -.- it's so bored..and bored the hell out of me~

nothing good to talk about today -.- and she still treat me so "coldly" ~ but whatever..what i been waiting is about my "SCHOOL" c'mon ~ faster reach 13th of May please~ then i can get to noe my new classmate =] new friends and new enviroment for study~ woo woo ~ ~ ^^ by that time i alr noe how to drive also haha ^^ sometime..life is really full of conflicts..when i was a form 5 student..i wish that i could have my holiday asap..and now..while im in holiday -.- i hope i can back to skool life asap...wow wdf lol? is that something wrong with my mind =.=??? zZzzz..whos noe...yes..god noe~

ok..about time for bed~
another day which i stayed up late -.- well..this not gotta be long anyway..have to learn to bed early soon~

Night and Ciao everyone <3

LOL LOL LOL =]

omg...today..i confessed my love to her! and she accepted! omfg omfg omfg i just dunno how to describe this tbh-.-.. im so freaking happy haha..hey u! Meifang Jorene! i noe u feel like telling mum when u read these! but whatever =] go for it haha..btw..happy April's fool =] and u should feel proud that u're 1 of them LOL

hahahhaa CIAO!

New Day! New Life! well..i hope

okok!!!!!!! Today!! i meant Thursday! wdf..how retard im sia -.- just realized i been typing Thurday instead of Thursday..god damn it..a soon-to-be form 6 student dun even noe how to spell thursday -.- but i still can get A in my SPM lol..well..new word learnt today =] haha

training centre de uncle called me :D! woo..later 6.15pm can go for my 2nd practical ! wewt~ but still dunno the training is in the centre or on road -.- zZzzz..must waste my energy call and ask the uncle again...swt..btw..Jason they all should reached Genting alr..and having fun there i guess =.=..well..waiting to see they post their pics when they're back haha :D

well..another slacking day at home..omfg..today is the 3rd day alr-.-..but luckily took dinner at outside today..finally can leave the stupid warm home lol..went to batu lancang there for dinner~ was abit rainy out there..but everything still alright hehe ^^ today can said as 1 of the earliest day to take my dinner-.-..omfg..i took my dinner be4 8.15pm! how awesome is that lol -.-
back to home..feel like watching TV -.- but the show i been watching still haven't broadcast yet=.=..zZzzz..and i decided to change my Fb profile pic lol...wasted around 30 mins-.-..to set up my stupid hair..and even bothered Jorene to help me take photo..but then..still failed lol..none of them meet what i looking for-.-..sad case~ and i even get my hair wet lol..

ok..after that~~ time for DOTA!! Fall in my dear DOTA MEMBERS! : Ryan & Alwin lol -.-
stupid Ryan keep ask us to play with real players..went for a match..and another epic failure =.=.
we get trolled! omfg..and luckily Ryan was the host lol..and he was keep counting down for leaving the match~ well..that's a smart choice haha :D rather leave match then let other pawn u!

after that..Alwin went offline..as he got classes tmr early in the morning-.-..then another 1 joined us..and..hes the stupid Stanley LOL -.- 1st match..he bullied me and Ryan badly-.-..but obviously..it wasn't him only..as he 1 person cannot pawn us :D hehe..well..that was some random too..some retarded who only noe how to camp camp camp -.- been SA-ing until 3.30am or so..then..off SA and FB time! we was there looking for some funny vids-.-..and then..kap lui lol ^^ but..today bo target .. nvm..kap again other day..and must get Alwin (1 of the pro stalker) to join us haha =]

ok..about time to sleep -.- mum nagging again~ 5.30Am~ woo..im a pro =]
Night everyone <3

Oh No~ Another Day -.-

ZzZ..suppose to go for my 2nd practical this morning..but delayed to this Friday or so-.-..and still not sure for the date...uncle say will inform me if he can arrage the date~omg..mean i have to waste another 1 week -.- i hate this seriously..maybe i cant drive to school for the 1st week..god damn it ..

whole day slack at home again -.- really got nothing to do..zzz..and today not even think..
seriously i feel that..i retarded..i always forgot what i wanted to do..and also what i wanted to say..wdf i hate this~ hope i could back to normal when skool start..

btw..i been thinking..why im always be the 1 who starts the chat?why can't other start talk to me 1st -.- well..i decided..i not gonna be the topic starter..i'd rather wait for other to talk to me 1st..except my closer friend like Ryan/Alwin/Stanley etc :D im a clever tart haha

about 10pm today..they all going Genting le..but i can't make my way there =.=..bah..whatever...all the best and hope them having a good trip there =] waiting to see they upload their pics hehe

damn..and i been dotaing since 11pm till 4am -.-..5 hours of dota would really ruining my mind..but most importantly..we had fun there haha..and yeah.. we lost the last match..lmao...epic fail again..tmr gotta own those AI back-.- lol....im waiting Alwin to bring me out for dinner again haha..hope someone else would join us as well..as it doesn't sound good to see 2 retarded go for dinner! haha...ops..i mean 2 genius! xD

good night everyone <3 about time to bed :D

Day for THINK!

erm...another boring day..but..boring is good sometime..as u can have time to think when u're boring..o well..today i been thinking of lots of thing tbh..

woke up around 2pm..and everyone went out right after i woke up..left me alone again..freaking boring..but got nothing better to do anyway..so just on my facebook and keep look at every recent news-.-..well..that's what i always do when im bored..after i get bored with fb..i went to living room..and lied on the floor and start my thinking..

i wondered...how fun would it be..if i can go for a travel to Genting...and i find that..things won't be fun without her..just exactly same with a thread i saw today..."when she is beside u..every single thing would be fun, without her..nothing would be fun in ur life"...i kinda agreed with that tbh :s and another 1 "自己在娱乐的时候，总会想到要是能把你带去就好了" this showed what i been thinking about..but wadever..things which wont be happened..not even worth to think..

so been wasting my time in home..doing nothing...and boredom is killing me slowly :S it would be nice if mum allow me to go for Gym-.-..so i don have to spend my day at home doing nothing..and unfortunately...mum still don allow me-.- sad case..

about 8pm or so...Cemerlang centre de uncle called me..and told me that my L license done le =] and will come over to fetch me 11am in the next day~ woo...2nd practical..and about 3 more to go for my P license-.-..well..1 month and i will get it! then i can drive :D! thats what im looking forward now~

actually..i quite like my life right now~ a life without school..bit boring but still fine..atleast i don have to worry over my school works etc..and single life is good as well =] atleast i don have to worry about others haha ~ indeed..i feel proud of it..and im kinda enjoy it as well .. a freedom life..which lots of ppl been looking for~ and im having it haha..

well..getting late now..and still have to wake up early tmr~ gonna sleep soon..
ciao everyone <3
Proud to be Single =]

Interesting Day #3

alot ppl went for cheng beng today xD but not my turn yet...~
went out with Jorene and Auntie Vivian today :D to our grandma house~
about 4pm or so..get everything ready..then start heading to grandma house~
but be4 that..we have to fetch Clement Chew (little cousin) 1st lol..i hate when both of my little cousin mix together..as they will start making freaking lots of noise..damn irritating as well-.-

after picked him up..we went to McD for lunch~ the McD at paya terubong there de~
and it was a playground there..Clement Ooi ( little cousin #2) was so freaking active..hyperactive tbh..keep climb here jump there..omfg-.-..and there are even a uncle complaining to us..ask us to watch out that little cousin-.-..as he jumped from the top of the slide~ omfg.. i love kids tbh..but i hate annoying kid-.-

after taken our lunch..we continued our way to grandma's house :D
Gladys (little cousin #3) was trying to take over my seat-.-..omg..i wonder why she even try to do that..c'mon..shes only 2 yrs old-.-..and she keep say "走开,走开" to me..when she was the 1 who try to take over the seat..gosh~ luckily grandma's house was so near to the McD..otherwise her voice gotta annoy the heck out of me lol..

reached grandma's house about 5 mins later..slacked for awhile..and we was doing some exercise there together lol...me , Jorene & Shermine (cousin #1)~ haha..the exercise which uncle Hin taught me ytd xD

after that..we went to sunshine Farlim to restock xD i saw Fern Ai there..but i doubt she can recognise me lol.. i think she dun even noe who am i haha..when we're on the 2nd floor of the shopping centre..grandma asked whether is that lightining outside there-.-..and i told her that was just the sound of the mic problem-.-..and actualy it was lightning outside there lol..after awhile...grandpa called Jorene..and Auntie Vivian thought grandpa was hungry and going to take dinner ..so she rushed to counter and quickly pay for the things we bought..but actually grandpa just want to inform us that hes going to take a bath 1st lol..

we been waiting at the downstair for about 20 mins..and it was raining heavily outside there..auntie Vivian had to drive the car to somewhere which rain cannot reach us lol..while we're going to take our dinner..the car was so freaking crowded-.-..it was like..ermm..8 ppl inside it..4 adults and 4 kids lol..the car was only support for around 5 ppl-.-..and we made it 8 haha..

went to a kopitiam near Air Itam for dinner-.-...foods served there was really "normal"..the fish is so freshless-.-..and the egg was so tasteless...everything also ok ok only=.=..sien nia..after dinner..went home xD ~ reached home around 10.30pm

reached home..Dota with Alwin and Ryan :D dota time became earlier..as Alwin got skool tmr..and he has to wake up early in the morning lol..dota for 1 match..then he gtg..and Ryan and me was trying the new map...i ended the game when he can't even make his way to buy the new item lol xD mean we wasted 10 mins for nothing haha..

after dota..SA awhile with Stanley / XiaoHui / Ryan xD and that stupid Stanley went to sleep on the midway-.-..after that..XiaoHui dunno pi mana also..then left me and Ryan again..so we went to dota again~ about 2 matches..till 3.30am or so..Ryan went to sleep xD

was kinda bored and hungry..so went to living room...and switched on the TV..omg~ "my sweetheart" epi 6 was on live~ woo..and jsut lucky that i missed that part on saturday..now can watch back xD and even take my supper as well..luckily only drink a cup of milk and few layers of cakes-.-..otherwise really wasted my "work" ~

about time to sleep lol xD
maybe afew more hehe...
night & ciao everyone <3

Interesting Day #3 (getting bored)

oh well..skip the craps about the woke up stuff..becuz everyday also same 1..daily routine haha

went out with sister about 3pm or so..went to Topper for hair cut~ was going to dye my stupid hair..but then..school start at May..it don make sense to dye hair just for 1-2 months yeah..so decided not to dye/cut as well xD

walked to my auntie's house from topper..took like 10 mins..seriously was suffering hard when walking under the freaking hot sun..and not to forgot to mention when we're on the way to there...the stupid aircond in the stupid car is having some problem..and even released out some stupid gas -.- hot burns my day

about 10 mins later..reached auntie's house..exhausted -.- stupid sun...had a nice chat with my auntie there xD and i just find that..i start to hate retards with rude attitude..shout loudly doesn't make sense tbh..and will even make ppl start to hate u..btw xD most importantly is i saw 1 chiobu there(obviously im not mentioning about my cousin..although she looks nice as well)..omg~ look totally diff with pics lol..or maybe i didn't look clearly..but wadever lol..none of my business ~

Sis came to fetch me around 8pm..and auntie cooked some dessert just for me..haha..seriously JUST FOR ME! woo =] they were having a conversation at the dining room..but talking about weird stuff LOL -.- and uncle taught me a way of keep fit..i find that quite useful..but really will make u feel freaking tired-.-

after that..we went to take our lunch at a Tomyam Shop..i forgotten the name..as the name doesn't even worth for me to remember lol..the foods served there really sucks..made me lose my appetite tbh..i swear i not gonna go to that restaurant anymore..even the drinks served there sucks..except the Milo-O -.-

reached home =] take a bath ~ then start Dota with Ryan and Alwin..earlier dota match for today..as tmr is Qing Ming ~ everyone have to wake up early~..had some nice chat with friend as well =] and even some helped friend a stupid thing..which really confused me lol..

it's time to fool someone ~ then gonna have a nice dream
night everyone <3 i love u all :D

祝福 - 张学友

不要問 不要說 一切盡在不言中

這一刻偎著燭光讓我們靜靜的渡過

莫揮手 莫回頭 當我唱起這首歌

怕只怕淚水輕輕的滑落

願心中永遠留著我的笑容

伴你走過每一個舂夏秋冬

幾許愁 幾許憂 人生難免苦與痛

失去過 才能真正懂得去珍惜和擁有

情難舍 人難留 今朝一別各西東

冷和熱 點點滴滴在心頭

願心中永遠留著我的笑容

伴你走過每一個春夏秋冬

傷離別 離別雖然在眼前

說再見 再見不會太遙遠

若有緣 有緣就能期待明天

你和我重逢在燦爛的季節

Interesting Day #2

umm..days getting interesting yeah =]
went to pasar malam with Jason and Louis hehe
was freaking bored at home..got nothing to do..so helped mum to vacuum the floor..after that
stupid sis came home..and she purposely tease me and say she gonna skip her dinner..
fine..since u not going to take ur dinner..i ask my friend fetch me there =]
called Jason and asked for mum's permission~then we start our outing around 7pm

after we picked Louis..we straight go to pasar malam and take our dinner there..
ordered Char Koay Kak as usual =] the best food of the pasar malam!~ so freaking tastyyyyy
after we taken our dinner..we walked around there lol..until it started raining..we rushed into car..but then we still can't decide where to go lol..so we sit inside the car with aircond on for around 20+ mins..after that..we decided to go to my auntie's house 1st as i having some problem about my stupid fingernail-.-
went there and meet my cousin's auntie..was kinda embarrassing lol..so Louis and Jason just standing outside and wait for me haha..went in..saw stupid Zhi Hui sitting on the floor -.- while i was looking for the nail clipper..she suddenly tell me that her friend obsessed with the song Mystery lol..and start the dance in school..seriously that surprised me haha

Went to Pragin Mall for midnight movie =] as 3 of us finally made our decision~ we going for the movie "Alice in the Wonderland"..lots of friends alr watched that movies..and some claimed that the movie is nice to watch..and just nice that 3 of us still haven't watch that movie haha..there was only 7-8 ppl inside the cinema-.-..kinda scary feel..and Louis was keep telling us someone is sitting on the most behind seat..and stupid Jason didn't saw it and keep say "bo lang at there la"...that really scared the stupid wits out of me lol..

about the movie..kinda nice..but stupid as well..since that's a kid rated movie lol..but the fatty boys inside the movie really amused us lol..and besides that..their way of speaking is kinda interesting as well...

movie ended around 1 hour and 45 mins..then we went to take our supper..near tua lor aw there..1 kopitiam named "Chap Tong" .. after i intro'd them..they said that next time this gonna be the place of supper lol instaed of Khaleel..as this is way cheaper than Khaleel..and foods served here if way delicious as well hehe..

reached home around 3am or so..been dota-ing with Alwin and Ryan..our 1st 3v5 match was really an epic fail..but we won for the 2nd 1 xD

okay..getting lates now :s gotta sleep for the sake of healthy! haha..
ciao everyone <3

Interesting Day #1

today..woke up as usual~
after that..sitting infront of my desktop..listen music -.-..then play Dota~
walked out of my room..and saw 1 lunch box on the table..i opened the lunch box and just realized that it's a empty 1-.-
Oh no..no free lunch for today..sad case

o well..cooked Shin-ramen as my lunch~woo..pro chef~tasty food~wonderful lunch
i seriously think that the ramen i cooked is way better than the 1 in KimGary =]

around 6pm or so..Alwin called me..and ask me whether if i ready for the dinner..
he came to fetch me after about 20 mins~ woo~
1st time sit in Alwin's car..and just realized that he has a good driving skill..especially in parking! but c'mon la..hes 1 of the INTI college student..i guess he trained his parking skill there..INTO produced pro parkers LOL

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went to take our dinner at Queensbay~ we saw afew of our ex-schoolmate..
1st thing to do - CYC..i wondered why everytime i go Queenbay..i surely will go to CYC-.-..
after that..we went for dinner at KFC! after i taken my dinner..and also after i washed my hand..when i looked at the slogan there.."it's finger lickin' good" i licked my finger and look at the slogan again..Alwin saw my stupidly act..then he looked at the slogan..he LOL'D hard there..when i ask him to do that, he rejected and claime'd that the foods there is not that good until need to lick the finger -.-
LOL~ after we taken our dinner..then we went home

i helped him to fix something about the Garena Client thingy on his laptop~ then we had a match of dota here haha~ after Dota , SA follow by xD after his mum gave him the last call..he have to go home lol xD gl on nagging Alwin haha

okay..it's only 12am now..way too early to sleep -.- erm..gotta plan what i gotta do tmr..as tmr is friday leh..must have some show on tmr =] hope it gonna be a good Friday! long live good Friday!

Ciao everyone <3

Boring Day #2

hell yeah...another boring day :)

woke up as usual..take lunch as usual..everything just as usual..
just wasting time until 9pm or so..finally start gaming with friends..
start chatting with Alwin since hes back..discussed abit thing about his college life..and what he had meet today..etc etc..omg..he told me that he meet a korean girl today! how awesome is that..seriously i hope i can have a korean classmate too -.-...but o well..not his classmate actually...it's someone else's classmate..Zzz..but dont u think it's awesome to have foreigner as ur classmate?c'mon..they speak different language..they have different tradition..that's just cool omg~

after that..went dota with Ryan as usual (i hate to use as usual..but no other word can replace it-.-) then SA with Alwin..so like that..time wasted around 6 hours..from 10pm till 4am..haha..another late night yeah...ok..parent nagging again..time for bed again..went to brush my tooth..get everything done..about to sleep..then just rmb..oh damn it..i forgot to blog today xD get up from bed and blog

o well..while in the bed..thinking of something..someone as well..im so freaking miss the her in my memory..i wondered why the her in my memory have such big different with real life..but o well..this is also the reason why we called it as LIFE..

Good NIght everyone <3 Ciao~

Boring Day #1

Today..woke up around twelve~ just nothing to do as usual la..then sister came back from lunch break..and she asked that why i didn't join Jason and Boon Khai for jogging in the morning...c'mon la..i twelve something just woke up..how am i possible to join them-.-..whatever..after that..went online..and just know that someone stole Jason & Boon Khai's phone...-.-..pity them..but there's nothing i can do for them also...

after that..been gaming for whole afternoon..until night..thought can go out..but then..still stay at home-.-..and not even take my dinner..my dinner = 1 cup of Milo from mum~..well..i blame Alwin for not coming to fetch me for dinner! hes a lazy freak LOL..-.-..o ya..that uncle still haven't arrage the date for me to go for my 2nd practical....saddddddddd..when can i driveeeeeeeeeeeeee...omfggggg..i hate boring life..i hate it soooooooooooooooooooooo much :s..if i can drive..i wouldn't stay at home anymore lol...atleast i will drive around Penang Island..find friend chit-chat etc etc-.-..or even be someone's driver LOL..zzz..well..1 MORE MONTH!! 1 MORE MONTH~!

O ya ya ya~~~~~ almost forgot to mention about this haha..tonite we're doing our daily activity again! stalk stalk stalk~ lmao! Alwin used to it alr lol..from me alone became We! from my own activity become OUR LOL :D


Gotta go for DOTA! CIAO! Ryan is waiting for me LOL :D HEHE
Night everyone <3

Happy Day after Sickness~

haha..luckily managed to recover from sickness in 1 day :D!

was feeling good after woke up..still can play afew rounds of SA be4 i get ready to go out :D
so Chun Liang came to fetch me with Jason around 4pm or so..after i went up his car..and i just noe that there're only 4 of us going for the outing today lol..was kinda surprised that Louis wasn't there..but Jason just told me that he was kinda outta his mood..o well..seriously..i'd rather see he happy than see he sad...

Okay..after they came to fetch us..we went back to Jason's house to fetch Chin Chin..after that..we went to Prangin for asking the details about a trip to Genting lol...about 30 mins later..we arrived Gurney :D

1st thing we do after we reached Gurney = purchase our tix for movie! so we decided to watch "Just another Pandora's Box" it's such a nice movie to watch :D so much of funny scene and hilarious act in it..freaking enjoy it tbh..although nonsense but funny..

after movie..we asked Boon Khai out~after that we took supper at a Kedai Nasi Kandar..everyone was hungry lol..as we taken our lunch around 5..and it's alr 7 hours ago haha..after that..reached home around 1.30am..a 11 hours of outing..considered long yeah? xD

reached home..1st thing to do = logon Facebook~ lol..after that..sit infront of my Pc and slack for awhile~ took a bath be4 going to sleep..feels good..but parent were worrying about taking bath late in the night would cause sickness again..well..they're just concerning about me..but their way of showing it was abit annoying as well-.-..

okay..ciao world..good night ppl <3

Sickness Day

freaking fall sick again today..was so dizzy when i woke up-.-
and feel like vomitting as well...must because of late sleep last nite..that why fell sick-.-
supposed to be sleeping be4 5am..but went to Dota with Ryan until 7am or so..

o well..luckily today wasn't the day for WeiTing's birthday celebration ;D!
it's on Monday! haha..hope i can get well as soon as possible ==..

been sleeping from 2pm till 9pm or so...took my 1st meal of the day around 10pm..and it was only porridge with some weird vegetables stuff-.- gosh..taste so awful..and i can't even finish up the porridge lol..feel so sicksssssssssssss...

school reopen tmr :) but im still on holidays haha...alot ppl went offline earlier today..lol..lonely night =S but luckily Alwin & Ryan still there !

doing our daily activity again : STALKING! haha

ok ciao...gotta sleep earlier tonite :)

im new to BLOG!

haha..created a blog..for fun :D
late in midnight and got nothing to do..so asked Alwin to give some help on creating a blog lol..
well..he tried to help..but doesn't help much tbh ahahaha...as he only google for help` lol
but whatever..thx to him :D and now this blog is created ! WOO!
boredom is killing me -.- god damn it..
late in midnight and i just created the blog?haha..4.20Am woo
mum came in and nag me again..almost time to sleep :D

Ciao everyone..good night <3